Gedicht

havent check my mail for ages..

and i received a surprise letter from a good old friend. Cant believe it~ he actually spend time and translate his poem to english for me. hoho!

thanks a lot to him~
wish i can understand German soon in future. After i mastered my jap, that is. haha!
think will have to wait for a long time before that day really come.

"Gedicht" means poem. and he uses ancient roman numbers to number them. The poem was about his personal misbehaviour during a relationship! hohoho! how exciting~~~~
this can be one of the good motivations for me to learn german, to 八卦 about other's life~
hehe! such a busybody huh? =p

here are the poems by this talented poet~ : ^_^
(borrowing and putting it up here first, hope he doesnt mind, hey, it is a crime not to share good poems!! and i will wait till that day when i can understand and fully appreciate it...)


Gedicht III

Imma
(Im Park eines grossen, auf einem kleinen Huegel liegenden Herrenhauses aus dem 19. Jahrhundert; Jung naehert sich wie die Abende zuvor der Terrasse und dem dortigen, einzigen erleuchteten Fenster des Hauses.
Hier liegt das Zimmer Immas.)

Jung:
Soweit ist es schon gekommen, schleiche wie ein Tier
Durch dichtes Blaetterwerk, darf mich nicht zeigen
Muss verborgen mich halten und eisern schweigen,
Aber Halt! Ich sehe sie, ach! Wie wird da mir.
Kann sie etwas ahnen?
Guckt so befremdet um sich.
Das sollt’ mich mahnen.
Spuert sie vielleicht mich?
(Imma oeffnet das grosse Fenster, tritt heran, blickt suchend hinaus.)

Imma:
Mir war, hier ist noch wer
Doch seh’ ich niemanden.
Ach, der Park scheint leer-
Keiner tut sich hier verirren!
(Imma schliesst das Fenster wieder. Jung aus dem Schatten tretend, dorthin er sich fluechtete.)

Jung:
Sie fuehlte meine Gegenwart!
Ich hoerte ihre Worte zart!
(Wieder durch das Fenster blickend.)
Schoen sie zu sehen
Doch will ich mehr
Brauch’ ich mehr.
Wie es ueberstehen?
Dort nur im Hemd sitzt sie und liest,
Die langen Beine uebereinandergeschlagen
Das Blut mir zu Kopfe schiesst.
Heisse Lust beginnt zu nagen
Ihren Koerper zu erblicken
Ihn immer wieder zu beruehren
Ihn vom guten Vorsatz abzufuehren.
In Ihrer Seele tiefen Sumpf zu schicken
Feuer und Eis zu spueren.
(Imma steht auf, das Hemd gleitet zu Boden, fuer einen Augenblick steht sie gaenzlich unbekleidet im Zimmer. Sie dreht sich zum Fenster, die Arme vor den Bruesten verschraenkt. Eine Haarstraehne haengt ihr ins Gesicht. Sie geht langsam zwei Schritte auf das Fenster zu, haelt inne und kneift die Augen zusammen. Dann dreht sie sich entschlossen um und schluepft in ihr Nachthemd.
Das Licht geht aus.)

Jung (nach einiger Zeit; wieder in der ihn verbergenden Ecke, in die er sich abermals fluechtete):
Was habe ich gemacht?
Was habe ich gedacht?
Beinah waer’s gescheh’n
Und sie haette mich geseh’n!
Fort muss ich!
Einen klaren Gedanken fassen!
Darf nicht so gehen mich lassen-
mir scheint ich habe einen Stich!
(Jung kommt hervor, laeuft in gebueckter Haltung von der Terrasse in den Park herab. Vorbei an den Statuen griechisch-roemischer Gottheiten, manchmal auf von Blumen umsaeumten Wegen, manchmal auf von Baeumen Ueberschatteten. Er gelangt zu einem engen Pfad, der ihn inmitten eines Waldes fuehrt. Er endet auf einer Lichtung vor einem alten Brunnen, der auf drei Stufen erhoeht steht, im Wald. Der Mond scheint voll und der Himmel ist sternenklar. Jung legt sich auf die Stufen, den Oberkoerper am Brunnen angelehnt.)

Jung:
Hab’ um dies’ Gefuehl erst nicht gewusst,
Dies lodernd Feuer in der engen Brust.
Es hat mich uebermannt
Einfach ueberrannt!
Aber kann’s denn Schande sein?
Aufrichtigste Sehnsucht,
Ernsthafteste Leidenschaft.
Manchmal dunkel und verrucht,
Manchmal weich und sacht.
So ist die Antwort wohl ein „Nein“.
(Jung steht auf, geht die Stufen hinab und stellt sich auf die Wiese, die Lichtung. Er spricht laut.)
Jung:
Was tut ein verliebtes Herz
nicht alles in seinem Schmerz.
(Traurig lachend.)
Durchs fremde Fenster seh’n
In ihrer Schoenheit sich ergeh’n;
Unrecht macht’ ich mir zu Recht.
Bin aber deshalb nicht gleich schlecht.
Habe versucht, ohne ihr zu schaden,
ohne dass sie es erfaehrt,
in ihren Bildern mich gesund zu baden.
Es war nicht verkehrt!
(Eine kurze Pause.)
Wie die Haare um Deine Schultern fallen,
Moecht’ auch ich Dich innigst so umwallen.
Ach, fuelle doch dies Loch in mir,
Wie dann auch ich
Fuer Dich,
In Dir.
(Zum Mond aufblickend.)
Es ist schon tiefe Nacht
Und heute werd’ ich hier nichts mehr.
Bin ganz geschafft
Und innerlich ermuedend leer.
(Jung legt sich nieder auf die Erde, dreht sich erst noch ein paar Mal von der einen zur anderen Seite und schlaeft dann ein.)
(Aus dem Waldesdickicht tritt jemand auf die Lichtung. Wie die Person in den Mondschein tritt, ist zu erkennen, dass es Imma ist. Sie geht zu Jung und kniet sich neben seinen Kopf.
Sie laechelt.)

Imma:
Ach mein Dummerchen,
Haett’st Du was gefragt,
Ich haett’ auch was gesagt.
Du gabst vor, nicht da zu sein,
Ich so tat, als waehnt’ ich mich allein.
Konnten beide nichts sagen
Es immer nur im Stillen tragen.
Nacht fuer Nacht,
Sah Dich kommen und geh’n,
Liess es stets gescheh’n-
Ich war entfacht.
( Imma streift ihren Mantel ab und legt ihn ueber Jung. Sie blickt ihn noch einen kurzen Moment an und laeuft dann, nur im Nachthemd, zurueck ins Haus.)


Gedicht IV

Verfallenheit
In ihrer Aura Laken
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In der Tiefe – Kraken.



Hamburg, irgendwann 2003

Das Gestaendnis

Morgen ist's, Du raekelst dich,
noch ueberall stiller Morgenschein.
Ich stehe auf, zu Haus’, und frage mich,
ist sie wohl zu Haus allein?
Abend wird's, ich denk' an Dich,
der Himmel so verfuehrerisch violett.
Ich klopfe an bei Dir und erklaere mich,
heimlich sei’st Du mir schon lange sehr adrett.
Ich fand fuer Dich damals nur dies eine Wort,
schaemte mich und wuenschte mich weit fort.
Doch glaub mir, waere ich gescheiter,
so erfaend’ ich fuer Dich Woerter, immer weiter.


Gedicht V

Hamburg, Winter 2003/2004
(zwischen November 2003 und Maerz 2004)
Aenderung am 22.05.2005; 16:26 Uhr)
Aenderung am 14.06.2005; 13:05 Uhr)
Aenderung am 26.06.2005; 16:53 Uhr)


CuT (nur eine Ansicht)

Was lauf ich fort?
Hatt’ ich doch Dich.
Will immer nur nach dort,
Denke immer nur an mich.
Du gabst mir viel,
doch zu viel nahm ich.
Durch mich, Deine Welt zerfiel,
bin durch und durch verderblich.
Gedenke gern den rauschenden Zeiten,
wir flogen die Hoeh’n herauf
und golden sahen wir die Weiten,
schauten der Welt raetselhaften Lauf.
Still und ernst ist dieser Abend.
Ich verneige mich mit laechelndem Gesicht,
Stehe vor Dir in gluecklichem Licht,
Mich selbst nicht ahnend.
Abschied von gluecklicher Zeit,
Ueberbringe ich.
Zitternd gehe ich so weit,
Verfluche mich.
Die mich einst verliess, komme zurueck,
Ich hoffe es.
Sie bringe heim mein Glueck,
Ich wuensche es.
Wie die Botschaft ausgesprochen,
erschleicht mich ein widerwaertiges Gefuehl:
Die Wahrheit hat errochen,
Den Geist, dem ich damals noch verfiel.
Deine Traenen quellen,
Mein Laecheln staehlern steht.
Dich zu verprellen,
Mein Herz vergeht.
In der Ferne seh’ ich Dich entschwinden,
Noch immer schmerzt die Brust.
Nie werd ich dies verwinden,
Nichts ist mir hier noch Trost.
Da zieht eine neue Einsicht herauf:
Das Glueck, es war schon da,
Aber ich nur immer in die Ferne sah.
So nimmt statt Glueck Unglueck seinen Lauf.
Irre strauchelnd nun durch oedes Heidekraut,
Traeume naiv von meiner ersten Braut.
Unheilvoll zieht die Nacht heran,
ganz leise und geduckt.
Ach! Wenn Gott mich von der Welt hier naehme,
vorbei waer all der plagend Geister Haeme!
Am Morgen erinnert nichts daran,
Bin von Finsternis verschluckt.



oops... think i lost the part I and II... =(

impromptu dinner

昨晚吃了晚餐后，这群明明很累，又不甘愿太早回家的人（哈哈，也可能只有我吧），又大费周章地跑去吃 icecream。

有点疯狂，但感觉还不错~ 嘻嘻~
这种偷来的自由，即便短暂，却也消除了这几天下来的燥闷。
不知怎么搞的，昨天脾气失控，居然拿笔丢学生。
教书以来，从没有过。而且还真丢脸，笔没打中目标，反而中了坐在旁边的同学。 *_*
笔飞出去的那一霎那，不止是学生，连自己也被吓到了。

嗯，我该不会是得了燥郁症吧？

如果是的话，妈呀，那可惨了……这可是更年期的症状啊~~


吃完冰，喉咙就开始痒，老想咳嗽
这是不是意味着不该乱溜达？


夜深了，胡思乱想

dont dare to sleep

once a friend recommended me a Thai horror movie, Shutter.
It was abt taken photos which had supernatual beings.
it is really scary... dont dare to sleep now, after watching it... =(
i watched many many ghost movies. ju-on, wishing stairs, the ring, sixth sense, and many others, and i am not affected after watching. But this one is this really terrifying, cos the things acted in the movie are so common in daily life.

i always have this problem of stiff shoulder and neck... and now, feeling kind of eerie.. >.<


I do believe there are such spooky spirits photos exist, as i remembered there are many tv shows in taiwan, asking pple to send in their photos and video of unnatual things. And there will be a psyche to decipher the message the spirit want to convey.

i praying hard i will never get to take such photos or videos in my life.



wish someone can accompany me tonight.
my snoopy doll is no use, although i hug it tight. =(

a trap?

上网，碰到了他。

好久没联络了，同样地有一搭没一搭聊着天，两种心情。

多年前的初夏，我们故事的结局，没有绚丽的惊叹句，也没有让人抱着一丝希望的疑问句。

或许有着一抹忧愁吧。还是这是我单方面的想法？

或许没了我，他更顺心。一切云淡风轻。

他问我为什么总是那么忙，难不成忙一辈子？诸不知我刻意努力地保持着安全距离；远远的关心，淡淡的朋友。

他是个聪明人，或许，他是知道的呢？



他和女友分手了，两年的感情。我不惊讶，这是意料中的事。

当两个人生活的步调和需求出现了分歧时，这感情就注定是个悲剧了。

从对话中，看不出他是否找到另一段新恋情。

他追问照片里的人是谁，问照片上的他和我的关系。

我为什么一五一十地回答他呢？真傻。。。干脆就让他误会算了嘛。。。

看着他MSN上放的那些照片，竟然有一种形容不来的酸愁。。。

我还喜欢他吗？

他还喜欢我吗？

还是存脆不甘心？

还是他想找个余兴节目打发时间？



他是个怕寂寞的人，街上的风景看不尽，常常玩得意乱情迷。

即使现在没有，他很快就会有下一个目标。



毋庸置疑，我们不适合。


祝福永远不奢侈，我祝福他。

Spectacles

Managed to contact my another good friend in time, before i fly back to Singapore.
Everyone is busy with work and studies. It is so difficult to arrange a time to meet up now.

We have not met for 4 years already~ since 2001 winter!
She didnt change much, still as pretty and fair from my memory
so excited to see old friends~ ^0^

We went to a jap restaurant, 麻布茶房, for dinner.
Simply love the ice cream there~ it tastes much better than swensons
and the rice is special too. i ordered cheese beef set meal + plum rice梅子饭, a mixture of sweet and sour taste, and i finish the whole set meal! to the last grain of rice~

after that, we then walk to 新掘江 (Xin Jue Jiang) to shop a bit.


We bought sunglasses from this shop

(we tried to act cool here, but obviously failed, hoho! look quite awkward, especially me~ =p )



back to normal us~

(is raining still, some of the shops are closed, very few pple shopping too, otherwise, the streets should be a scene of bustle and excitement)


my old specs (5 yrs) was spoilt already, bought 2 new ones from another optical shop.

(purposely choose a thick rectangle frame for a stern teacher image, it will match perfectly with a cane in hand) Wahahahahaha~!!!



after shopping, we stroll to the famous night walkway, 城市光廊, for coffee break.
but it had been raining for days, and today is raining too. the cafe was not opened.
the lighting was nice and colourful though
this was my 2nd time there after many years.
we tried to take a few pic there... but it all turned out blur and ghostly... *_*


this is the best one already

after buffet, with bloated stomach and contented smiles

this is more like it. Chef Alex gains back his reputation

our food prepared by Big Chef Alex, 3 chao da octopus. taste like rubber ^_^!!

and then, a chao da (burnt) chicken for Chef Alex

a prawn for Anita~

we gals happily waiting to be served~ hoho!

our big chef for today, concentrating in cooking

Wu Zang Restaurant

Went out with friends for dinner

We have Japanese BBQ buffet this time, at 武藏 restaurant.
actually planned to go to 野宴 for dinner, but we were 3 blur king and queens. Got mixed up and could not find the restaurant.

but we still have a jolly time~ ^_^

10 CDs at one go

went out with mom today

we went to 汉神 （han shin）, and i bought many CDs there!
i was drawn into the music shop by the beautiful vioce of Russell Watson.

the sales manager is very knowlegeable. he recommend me some other very nice CD.
really love it. In the end, i spent around $300 (6000NT) on 10 CDs.

Russell Watson (Amore Musica)
Il Divo (Il Divo)
Best Voices "Audiophile" I, II, III
Best Voices "Bossa"
Gotan Project (la revancha del tango)
Susan Wong (I wish you l0ve), (These foolish things)
Always Forever (Mix)

phew, this is the first time i spend so much money buying cds at one shot.. ^_^!!
although expensive, i think they are worth it. some of them are imported ones too.
highly recommended from me now
and i can spend my many days enjoying these wonderful music. hoho!

and today, i get to know that singapore has a much talented female singer, totally different from stephanie sun (whom i still dont know the reason why she can be so popular), she is Susan Wong, jazz singer. I like her vioce; unique and attractive.

he went offline without saying goodbye..

strangely, my mood was affected

this is stupid...

Raining Days

raining heavily outside...

it has been raining all day all night

when will the rain stop? it never seem to stop

guess today is just another day, a day at home... lazy to go out anywhere too.

my fingers are dancing on the keyboard
chatting with friends, surfing net

practice my violin ba
i havent master my simple symphony pieces yet...

draw a sketch ba
there is someone dear i wanna draw...

study some japanese vocab ba
i am behind the class's pace already...

talking to myself and find this foolish
yeah, this is me...


the complex me

so many coincidence --- creepy

Have a history teacher explain this----- if they can?


Abraham Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846.
John F. Kennedy was elected to Congress in 1946.


Abraham Lincoln was elected President in 1860.
John F. Kennedy was elected President in 1960.


Both were particularly concerned with civil rights.
Both wives lost their children while living in the White House.


Both Presidents were shot on a Friday.
Both Presidents were shot in the head.


Now it gets really weird.


Lincoln's secretary was named Kennedy.
Kennedy's Secretary was named Lincoln.


Both were assassinated by Southerners.
Both were succeeded by Southerners named Johnson.


Andrew Johnson, who succeeded Lincoln, was born in 1808.
Lyndon Johnson, who succeeded Kennedy, was born in 1908.


John Wilkes Booth, who assassinated Lincoln, was born in 1839.
Lee Harvey Oswald, who assassinated Kennedy, was born in 1939.


Both assassins were known by their three names.
Both names are composed of fifteen letters.



Now hang on to your seat.


Lincoln was shot at the theater named 'Ford..'
Kennedy was shot in a car called 'Lincoln' made by 'Ford.'


Lincoln was shot in a theater and his assassin ran and hid in a warehouse.
Kennedy was shot from a warehouse and his assassin ran and hid in a theater.


Booth and Oswald were assassinated before their trials.


And here's the kicker...

A week before Lincoln was shot, he was in Monroe, Maryland
A week before Kennedy was shot, he was with Marilyn Monroe.


Creepy huh? But I think this is one history lesson people don't mind knowing. =p

A cute story (Not Everyone Sees & Hear the same thing)

The day finally arrived;
Forrest Gump dies and goes to Heaven.
He is at the Pearly Gates,
met by St. Peter himself.

However, the gates are closed
and Forrest approaches the Gatekeeper.
St . Peter says,
"Well, Forrest, it's certainly good to see you.
We have heard a lot about you.
I must tell you,though, that the place is filling up fast,
and we've been administering an entrance exam for everyone.
The test is short, but you have to pass it before you can get into Heaven."

Forrest responds, "It shor is good to be here, St. Peter, sir.
But nobody ever tolt me about any entrance exam.
Shor hope the test ain't too hard; life was a big enough test as it was".

St. Peter goes on, "Yes, I know, Forrest, but the test is only three questions.

First: What two days of the week begin with the letter T?
Second: How many seconds are there in a year?
Third: What is God's first name?"

Forrest leaves to think the questions over.
He returns the next day
St. Peter who waves him up and says,"Now that you have had a chance to think the questions over, tell me your answers."
Forrest says, "Well, the first one --which two days in the weekbegin with the letter "T"?
Shucks, that one's easy. That'd be Today and tomorrow.

The Saint's eyes open wide and he exclaims,"Forrest, that's not what I was thinking,
but you do have a point, and I guessI didn't specify, so I'll give you credit for that answer.
How about the next one?" asks St. Peter ."How many seconds in a year?""

Now that one's harder," says Forrest,"but I thunk and thunk about that andI guess the only answer can be twelve."Astounded, St. Peter says,"Twelve? Twelve!? Forrest, how in Heaven's name could you come up with twelve seconds in a year?"

Forrest says "Shucks, there's gotta be twelve: January 2nd, February 2nd , March 2nd . . ""Hold it, " interrupts St. Peter."I see where you're going with this, and I see your point, though that wasn't quite what I had in mind.....but I'll have to give you credit for that one, too.
Let's go on with the third and final question.
Can you tell me God's first name"?

"Sure" Forrest replied,"its Andy."
"Andy?!"exclaimed an exasperated and frustrated St. Peter.
"Ok, I can understand how you came up with your answers to my first two questions, but just how in the world did you come upwith the name Andy as the first name of God?"

"Shucks, that was the easiest one of all,"Forrest replied.
"I learnt it from the song. .

"ANDY WALKS WITH ME,
ANDY TALKS WITH ME,
ANDY TELLS ME I AM HIS OWN. "

St. Peter opened the Pearly Gates and said:"Run Forrest, run."

壓垮愛情的最後一根稻草

A friend fwd me this passage. not bad.

寫的很棒，值得未婚男女好好思考~~~



結婚是 " 兩家人" 的串聯　生活卻是 " 兩個人" 的一輩子


「老實告訴你好了，我一定要離開，因為我從來就沒有喜歡過這棟房子。 地點也好、裝潢也罷，我通通都不喜歡！」她冷若冰霜地宣告。


男人的未婚妻以「不喜歡新房子」這個聽起來幼稚可笑的理由發難，砲轟 個他莫名所以又措手不及，當著他呆如木雞的面孔，徹底收拾湮滅她在此 生活過的證據，終結兩人多年的感情以及曾經共同計劃的未來，頭也不回 地閃人了。


男人的人生運勢一直相當不錯。學業愛情一帆風順，事業更搭上「電子新貴」的太空梭，財富凌霄直上；當他動了結婚的念頭時，他以為凡事都可以按部就班、各就各位，首先，未婚妻說婚後想要自組小家庭，男人的老 媽也同意，所以得先去買幢房子。


男人和未婚妻的爭吵，就從看房子時開始的。

光是地點就左右為難得很。


老媽喜歡靠近郊區的傳統透天厝，一再對他耳提面命「我最怕坐電梯住高 樓了，地震火災逃都沒地方逃，雖然我不會天天和你們住在一起，但，你可不希望我爾偶去你家小住幾天時，無時不刻提心吊膽吧」；未婚妻喜歡 位在市區的電梯公寓大廈，認為如此才能「方便吃飯逛街，有管理員和管委會料理日常瑣事，生活較有品質」。


兩造意見，南轅北轍，老媽一句「出錢的人決定要買在哪裡」，他是出錢 的人，而他是老媽生的，理所當然買了郊區的透天厝。


接下來裝潢也讓他成了豬八戒照鏡子，裡外不是人。 老媽說「廚房的門怎麼可以拆掉？煎煮炒炸油煙那麼多，萬一沒了門，整 個客廳也都會燻得烏漆嘛嘿的，成何體統！」


未婚妻說，「可我喜歡開放式廚房啊。小家庭很少開伙，油煙根本不多。 門拆掉做個吧台隔間兼當餐桌，冷氣進得到廚房來，實用又有情趣。你忍 心看我像從前的女人那樣卑微，窩在沒有冷氣的小角落搞得滿頭大汗？」


老媽退休後成天在家英英美黛子，自告奮勇到現場監工……廚房的門當然 是保住了，吧台就甭提了。


房子終於搞定後，男人和未婚妻先搬進去住，正討論婚禮細節的當兒，未 婚妻忽然說︰「我不玩了，可以吧？再見！」


直到當愛已成為往事很久以後，男人還是不了解︰「事情有到要毀婚這麼 嚴重嗎？要是真的那麼不喜歡這幢房子，當初可以堅決反對到底啊。為什麼當時要讓步，而最後又翻臉呢？」


是啊，男人真的不明白女人的婚姻焦慮。對一個即將嫁為人婦、成為人媳 的現代女人來說——房事，不僅僅是「買在哪裡、怎麼裝潢」這麼單純的 問題而已，而是一項觀察指標，觀察她將嫁入的即這個家庭，將來有沒有 容納她意見的空間。如果男人連房事都得對原生家庭的意見照單全收的話 ，教她如何相信，將來她的生活空間和婚姻經營權可以完全被尊重？


房子，只是壓垮他的愛情的最後一根稻草而已。


Le papillon's thoughts:

it is a cruel but true fact.

After all, the women are more independent these days. Most women have their own jobs and can even perform better than men in many aspects of work. We dont actually have to depend on men. Why get ourselves trapped in the the marriage tomb if the married life is not going to be better than being single?

that is a slow suicidal act...

i support the fiancee's decision; better to back out before it is too late.

Toffee Club

hoho! went out with one of my taiwan's best friend tonight!
we havent seen each other for 3 years already! time really flies!


she is getting prettier through the years, and she has a new boyfriend now.
hehe! happy for her. and i think the current bf is much better than the last one i saw 4 years ago. they are very suitable for each other, and i am really happy for her. ^_^


haha! and i already booked to be her bride maid if they get married. =p





she brought her 6 months old puppy to show me. it is very cute, eats alot, and cant stay still. its name is "小红豆" meaning "little red bean". cute name huh?






beacuse of little red bean, we went to a unique restaurant, Toffee Club, for dinner at 民生路 tonight. it allows pple to bring in their pets. it is a combined restaurant for human and pets. hehe! equality to all~
and the food is very tasty there! the price is reasonable as well.


there were quite a few pple there tonight. each bringing their own dogs. the settings is very comfortable and relaxing too. dogs are free to walk abt in the restaurant, socializing with other dogs there. in the meanwhile, pple can just laze and sit there, relax, chit chat with friends, read magazines, order some food and etc.
oh yeah, the pets have their special menu also!


interesting place~ i never know kaoshiung has such restaurant ^_^

Funeral picture of Spider

try to take a pic of a spider today.

mom was the first one who discover it. and i was thrilled upon seeing it; cos it was big in size. It was about the size of a palm! and i can even see its hair clearly too!

it dodge and run here and there, so difficult to capture it with camera through the view finder.



and in a mess, i stepped on it accidently

then it bye bye liao...
it shrunk (to the size of 3/5 of palm), and curled up its legs neatly.

i can only take a photo of its yi2 zhao4 ^_^!!

Stroll at riverside

the love river is very beautiful and lively recently.
cos the 端午节 festival is coming
The 龙舟赛 (boat rowing competition) is coming in just a few days, and along the sides of the river, pple are setting up their stalls already, selling food, drinks, games, gifts and etc!

a few years ago, the water was still very dirty and polluted. There was even one time that a foreign competition team refused to row the boat in the river, cos the river was too smelly.

but now the situation is much better!
there is no strange smell anymore, and lesser rubbish floating on the water surface.
if possible, i dont mind to take part in the rowing competition too~
hoho! that will be quite an experience!
(hmm, i wanna be the one who beat the drum on the boat =p)

~~day dreaming~~ ^_^

this pic is taken less than 20cm away

an afternoon in the garden

Spend my whole afternoon chasing after butterflies, bugs, ants, and insects in the garden.

never realize that it is so difficult to take a pic of butterfly
it always flys away even before i can get close to it...
i got a bit frustrated in the end, as there are many times where the focus, background and postition of the subject were perfect, then it just flew away.... Argh!

hehe! i bet it must also feel irritated too, and think that i am a nuisance~ cos i am not only disturbing its lunch, but also always charging aggressively at it with a camera =p

towards the evening, i decide that i will wait, focus on a spot, and hope that the butterfly can just fly into my photo taking range.

i waited... and waited..... and waited..........
in the end, i got 2 mosquito bites on my face... =(

but at least, i got a few good shots in return

"window shopping" down town

Hang around with mom and godbro in town today.
today is a rest day for me, therefore, dont wanna waste it at home.

we plan to window shop at first...

yeah, at first.... ^_^


but well, when we reached there, the most attractive 4 letter words are every where~~~

"SALE" ~ "SALE" ~ "SALE" ~ "SALE" ~ "SALE"~

hoho!!!

and poor godbro, haha! he turned into our carrier-man... =p

as we walk down the street, i was approached by model agents, again...
there are abundance of pretty and tall girls out there, why choose me? a shorty.. haha! think they just wanna cheat me into signing up for their training courses ba... luckily mom was there to reject them for me~ =)

anyway, i bought a green cowboy straw hat from mango, a skirt, and 2 tops.
mom bought a pair of shoes from pretty fit, and 2 shawl.
3 lipstick from shu uemura
we choose 2 nice tops for godbro too. ^_^

although we spend quite an amount, i still feel happy with our "trophies" today~ hoho!

i will wear my new hat back to taiwan!


私の新帽子～

CHIJ Family Carnival

Woops! Haha! I am really blur
The carnival is on 28th!
I mistaken 28th as Sunday, some of my friends said that they are coming over on Sunday..
Haiz… Too bad... now they cant make it.. most of them got to work on sat..
And I got to postpone Saturday’s shopping activity with Rachel too. =(

But the day goes well for me still. My god-bro comes over. He is the only one who can make it in the end. At least I got a good camera man to take photos for me haha!

The day is soooooo hot! I can feel my sweat tickling down my back!
And my jeans is sticking to my skin due to sweating… feels heavy and tight.
Argh… I am melting!!!! And the umbrella cant really provide much shade, but at least it is better than none.

It was compulsory for teachers to buy at least $100 of coupons. Hence, i tried very hard to use up all the coupons. i treat my student and parent helpers food, tibits, and drinks. then went to play at the game stall with god-bro.
hehe! and i earn 19 game tokens. Used 16 tokens and exchange for a green monkey..
hmm, what else?... oh yeah, towards the end of the day, i even give the coupons to my student, and tell them to spend it for me. Then i spend the rest of the money on buying many balloons, $2 each. Then i give away my balloons to students whoever pass by for freeeeeeee


嘻嘻！看着她们惊讶而欢喜的表情！心情真好~
to be able to bring joy to others is such an enjoyment ^.^

Such a hot day! But it is perfect for photo taking! Most of the photos are clear and colourful! Except a few that are really “shaken”

Hoho! Cant wait to send my photos for my friends and dear grandparents and dad to see~

Such a wonderful day~

Such a wonderful day!~~

Star Wars Craze

everyone is crazy about star wars these days

family and i join this trend too... we went to watch the star war midnight show the other day

but i think i placed my expectation too high already; dont think it is that nice...

out the the whole show, my favourite character is the lizard that Obiwan rides.
but unfortunately, it died in the end... =(

anyway, i still prefer Lord of the Rings



A very funny clip, laugh till death =D

http://www.storewars.org/flash/index.html

Endless Work

HOD told me that there will be a group of master teachers from china coming to visit our school next thursday.... and they will observe our lessons too... the whole group of them, along with a deputy from Ministory of Education will be sitting at the back of the class, and will stay throughout the whole lesson!!! faint~~

Gee!! why at this point of time???

there are so many things to do already.... we have to pack up our things to get ready to move into new school premise, and have to key in students' marks into the school cockpit, and the school carnival is coming up next week too!! We have to set up the stores to sell things, and also to attend extra courses!!!


so many things already, yet the principal still wanna invite them....
heard that the some schools had turn them down...
why our principal is not as kind and sympathetic to teachers....
she think that we havent work enough is it? =(



shivering in fear... cant believe this unwelcoming news
they going to observe me:
= lesson plan + power point + designing and making of teaching materials
= endless work
= no rest during weekends
= comment and feedback from principal and visitors

i can imagine the situation for next thursday already...

(should be like this)

sigh.....

how i wish i can.......




hohoho!! 潇洒

haiya! know that this is not possible...

but it still make me feel better just to imagine that~ =p

i will not waste my food again

saw this email that my friend fwd to me....
this pic really shocked me...
and i suddenly realized how fortunate we are
and how discontented and greedy i am to always wanting for more luxurious material enjoyment and superficial reputation and lifestyle..
i will not waste or complain about my food again...
let's say a prayer for the suffering in anywhere anyplace around the globe...




kevin Carter was the photographer who took this picture.

This was found in his diary:
Dear God, I promise I will never waste my food no matter how bad it can taste and how full I may be. I pray that He will protect this little boy, guide and deliver him away from his misery. I pray that we will be more sensitive towards the world around us and not be blinded by our own selfish nature and interests. I hope this picture will always serve as a reminder to us that how fortunate we are and that we must never ever take things for granted.

vertraute Freundschaft

der Doppelgänger? ^_^

Red

Saw a MTV last night, "Susan Said" by David Tao.
and i like the costume and the feeling projected by the mtv..
it is like telling a story, little by little, piece by piece

I like the reddish maroon that the story character wears. the colour contrust is bold and striking. give me a deep impression..



then i had this strange dream last night. i dream i was an assassin of ancient china.
"赤（Red）" is my name, carrying a long curve blade (弯月刀) , and lead an force of elite assassins.

tried drawing it out..
hmm, this is so far the best one after a few attempt.
how many marks will you give out of 10? =p

Friday 13th

十三号星期五。

又到了这个危险的日子。

这个不吉利的日子，曾经被我期待着。苦笑。

曾约定过，每年的这天是我们大冒险的日子。但始终只是个幻象。如香槟泡沫般，诱人而飘渺。
不该想，反正也没什么好想的。活在过去是懦弱的行为。何必为了一个品格低劣的人而坏了心情？



今天约了个朋友吃晚餐。感觉挺奇特的，我们就像介于陌生人和朋友之间，
哈，算是熟悉的陌生人吧~

人蛮好的，脾气很好（至少没责备我害他等那么久 =p），健谈开朗，有时还蛮细心的呢，茶喝完了，总记得添茶。还问我到家了没。Hoho! 怎么突然感觉好像变成需要人照顾的小孩了~

挺高兴能认识这位朋友的。希望真的有一天可去试试wakeboarding，体验“水上飘”的感觉。 ^_^

with ganma

MSN problems ~ again

just finished marking 2 big piles of workbook...

好有成就感啊！！呵呵！

there is something wrong with the msn thingy again...
cant log in.. =(

but that is good in a way. Think i am becoming overly addicted to computer nowadays

and i havent touch my japanese textbook for a long time, and still owe my jap sensei 3 chapters of homework.... Gee!! i am a teacher myslef, yet such a bad example. =p
应该反省反省


bro is travelling in mongolia now... how i wish i can join him...
i wanna ride on the horses, 辽阔的草原，碧蓝的天
and i wanna experience the life living in the special mongolia houses (蒙古包)


i have no mood to work now. my friends who are still studying are all on holidays now, enjoying life, and the fresh air after exam.

next week is my school's semester exam, and that will be my busiest week...
i will be like a marking machine

mark, mark, mark, mark, mark and markmarkmarkmarkmarkmarkmarkmarkmarkmark and
markkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Oversea Call from a friend

received a surprise oversea call from a taiwanese friend.

it is really a surprise, never expect such a call before

but haha! it feels kinda good to get such oversea call from friend other than family.

he was surprised that i never call up my taiwanese friends b4... come to think of it...
yeah hor... my 2 best frineds in taiwan, i never call them up. only contact them when i went back. 挺绝情的~
Maybe i shall give them a call someday! haha! i can imagine the stunned look on their face! hoho!

Aching body, Contented heart

Aching all over now….
Arm pain, leg pain, even buttock also pain..
Long time never exercise le, hoho! body getting rusty.


Yesterday was still feeling ok..
Today is becoming worse. And I am a few shades darker le…. Arrrrgh!


However, it was fun despite all this. There were 11 of us playing paintball.
We each were given a gun (never hold a gun b4, that is the first time, and it was heavy… -_- ), wear a vest, and put on the mask to protect the face. And we each were given 2 magazine too. After dividing ourselves into 2 groups, the “warfare” begins!


I was very clumsy, and was shot many many times.
Those pple who got shot, will have to hold their gun high up in the surrender position, and run all the way back to the home base to “resurrect” again.
Haha! And I think I spent most of the time doing that… running to and fro, in and out of home base, guess that’s why my arms are more painful then my legs now. =p


And the paint ball should be called “pain ball”~ cos it was kinda painful when we get shot if we didn't wear any protective clothings.
Once, I was too engrossed in the war to realize that my arm "ate" a bullet. Till there is a hot and needle like feeling on my arm, then I realized I got a bad bruise, and slight bleeding. I think the bullet just brush past my arm’s skin, cant imagine what if it was a solid, full impact shot… @o@
Luckily, some other hit parts only suffer from slight bruise, thanks to my old clothes.
My friends too, most of them suffer a bruise here and there. But miraclly, 2 of my friends didn't have any blue-black at all. And they are wearing sleeveless and shorts….

Hoho! Next time, if I going to play again, I will surely wear long sleeves and long pants.
Erm, but on the second thought, I think I will faint from the heat if I wear like that…

They are quite nice pple. Though we don't really know each other very well, but i still enjoy the day very much~



errr..... Looking at my bruise now…, it is getting more disgusting..
Yesterday was only red in colour, now there is a mixture of red, black, purple, brown and green.


Hope it will disappear soon.

Busy week

Another week almost pass..
It has been a busy week for me. Full of exciting activities.


Went to the PAP women’s party lounge with Maple on tue night. Or should said that she dragged me there? =p
I don't even know much politics at all, especially Singapore politics…
Was kind of worried, donno whether I can join in the conversation, or answer the political questions..
But it turned out not as boring as I thought. Though there are still pple who ask me to comment on the Taiwan Singapore relationship, and the LP incident… -_-!!
The fun part was when we were sabotaged by the host to start the dance in front of the stage. The music was on, and the lighting was right, just that nobody is moving. Everyone just stood there like statues. It was fun to see more pple joining in, and the atmosphere was pretty high~
We also met a cute guy there, Kelvin. Hmm, another Kelvin~ =p
Think Maple and him can be an item, they quite suit each other~ haha!




Wed
Was suppose to meet a friend after school... but was too tired, and have to catch up with my markings… so fly him airplane le…. =p
Gomenasai~




Thurs
Always wish to fake sick, and get mc, and rest at home for a day… but never actually proceed on with my slacking plot.
the thoughts hit on me again on wed night… to make this thur my personal rest day. Hoho!
But when I wake up in the morning, I really didn't feel well le. Headache with abdomen pain…. Sigh… and I really went to see the doc with my real sickness.. =(
The doc give me some painkillers, and I revived again when the pills start having effect~ haha!

Went to see the “Lord of the Dance” at kallang theater at night. It was a great performance! Can even feel the floor shaking~
There is a part when the dancers ask us to clap at a certain tempo, and they started tapping to the beat! Just the clapping of the hands, and the sound of feet tapping on the floor~ such a incredible interaction~
me wanna learn tap dance!!




I am going to play paintball with a group of friends later. Never tried such a game before~ hehe! Cant wait for the time to pass..
Suddenly, I feel the clock tick on so slowly…
2am now, better force myself to get some sleep =)

Cute Mongolia Song ~FAMILY~

边看凤凰台，边改作业。

广告时，无意间听到一首用蒙古语演唱的歌，小女孩的声音好听极了！！纯纯的，好可爱的童音，我一下子就喜欢上了。小娃娃稚气的童音，好奇地问东问西，爸爸妈妈耐心慈祥地回答着她的问题，一问一答，一来一往，听起来真的是好可爱呢！


歌曲并不花俏，但却直达心灵。简单而纯朴，听了心情就像蒙古的草原和蓝天一样清新而透明呢~ 聆听时心里都是满满的幸福感觉。多么快乐幸福温暖的家庭啊！ =)



我们心中是需要保有一些自然纯朴的感动的。


Hehe!! 马上就上网找这首歌~~
《吉祥三宝》 ^_^
《Father And Mother I Love You = FAMILY》
http://www.cnflash.net/zp_page/listzp2938.html



歌词翻译

爸爸（跳在火盆旁）
嘴里念念有词
小女儿问，爸爸，什么是太阳？什么是月亮？什么是星星？
爸爸说，哎，是吉祥三宝

妈妈（在一边缝补衣服）
嘴里叼着棉线
小女儿转向妈妈妈妈，什么是绿叶？什么是花朵？什么是果实？
妈妈说，哎，是吉祥三宝啊

小女儿（想了一想）
抬头还问，什么是爸爸？什么是妈妈？什么是我？
爸爸妈妈说，是吉祥三宝喂，永远吉祥。

waiting

海潮不知什么时候退走了
抛下了一只没有桨的船
听不见波涛的喧嚣
也听不见风暴的呐喊
它默默地搁浅在沙滩上
显得有些孤独，又有些伤感
但它却固执地等待着
等待着潮水再返海岸
它怎能不去漂泊呢？
它毕竟只是一条船……


No one knows when the tide went out,
leaving behind a boat without oars.
Which hears neither roar of waves,
nor cries of windstorm.
Quietly stranded on the shore,
alone and desolate.
Obstinately it waits,
waits for the tide to turn.
It can only drift:
It is, after all, but a boat


跌跌撞撞，想走不平凡的路
潜意识里仍不停地追逐，是浪漫？还是世故？
这个世界太辽阔了，我的心在游移，我要的是什么？
我在等待着什么？

Exam Paper Fever

所设的考卷，又被退回来了……
看了看被画起来的地方
天啊！都是一些可有可无的改变
什么要对齐啦、不直啦、课本里没有这个生字啦等等

学生们没学过的字就不能出吗？
“学生们只学过‘惊’ 没学过 ‘惊慌’，所以我们不能考 ‘惊慌’ 这个词。 ”


难怪新加坡的语文程度一直提升不起来……
或者应该说是我校而已呢？
而且我出的也不是太难的字啊，别的学校就可以不用太考虑到这个问题，为什么我校就那么怕事呢？怕家长追问吗？


不过有一些错误的确是自己粗心了，打错了一两个字。
今天一定要做完，明天就要交给校长看了。



唉！今天放学回家，我又习惯性地磕掉了一筒冰淇淋……


教师难为啊~

Rhythm of the Rain

一緒に　お茶を　飲みませんか？


今天的天气不太好，阴阴的。
我的心情也不太好，have to set exam paper，update work review， plan for thursday's lesson observation, even have to bring students out to sell ticket for school on sunday...

sob sob... T_T

that is my weekend...

but in the end, i cast everything aside and went out to orchard with mom for lunch.
顺便去“血拼”（shopping）！

mom bought a pair of shiny shoes, as for me, i bought a pair of lady style white jeans (hehe! my first pair of jeans in white colour, love the heart shape pocket too~) and a purple top. Like it so much that i wear it straight away..
hehe! proved that shopping is the best mood therapy for woman..
we manage to reach home before it start raining


then me had a cup of hot tea at the balcony, watching the rain




and still refuse to do any of the work which i am suppose to do.... =p


think will do at night ba

^_^!!

~~TORI~~ (* >*)

another one~ ^_^


今日　とても　疲れますから、何も　したくないです。
私のうちに　鳥が　います。
鳥は　毎日　何も　しません。　どこも　行きません。
私は　朝から　晩まで　ひそがしいです。
休みが　全然　ありません。
私は　鳥と　一緒に　休みたいです。

My Little Frds~

小休片刻

Finally! It’s Friday!

Really need a rest… 　　
　
心血来潮，拿出CD听听。耳边响着林志炫 Terry Lin 的歌声。
还是那么地喜欢。声音干净得没有一点儿杂质，真假音转换得如此自然。
现今华语歌坛好像还没有人可如此吧。。。


听起来很舒服~ 嘻嘻！忍不住也跟着哼了几句 ~~(^o^)~~


可惜好像近来都没有发片了

one of my fav

At Yishun Park

Photography

昨天边吃晚餐，边看电视。

这集的 “台湾脚逛大陆”介绍了新疆。那里的风景真的是美不胜收。
还有王母娘娘的瑶池~~~~ 哇！真是心生向往~~~~~

难怪那里堪称是“摄影者的天堂”。有生之年，真希望能够去那里走一走。

尽情的照相去~~
照它个上百上千张 ^_^
顺便去放松心情，远离城市的喧嚣，自由自在，多好！




就这么刚好，在网上看到了一位朋友的摄影作品，撩起了对摄影的兴趣。
真佩服这些大男生~
透过他的摄影镜头，所看到的世界可以是如此的美丽。
真的很用心思取角度呢！


哈哈！相比之下，我的照片顿时成了幼稚园的程度了~ =p

Hunting Dictionary

いつも　よい日本の辞書が　欲しいですね。

この　しゅうまつ　よく店へ　買いに　行きました。
Funanや　takashimaya などに　入りました。

とても　つかれますね！！　ひとが多かったです！ @_@


わたしは　kinokuniyaで　よい辞書を　二つ　見つけるでした。
どちらも好きですから、 たくさん時間　使われた　決定する。
わずらわしいでした～

最後に　どちらも　買いました。全部で　安くなかったですね~

$_$

Picking Litter and Feeding Mosquitoes

Brought my girls to zhenghua park to pick litters, for community work.

this is the first time me bringing students out of school~

weather was so hot over there, the sun was really merciless, and there was not a single shade at all
Even i was sweating profusely, not to mention abt the students le

luckily i told the girls to bring along their umbrellas, caps, and water bottles
but seems like i am the only one using the umbrella in the end

they were so energetic, sprinting and running all around the park
wonder where they get all such engergy from?
(or am i being old?? ^_^!! )
and poor me, as i am the only teacher over there, have to chase after them, taking photos for school magazine, making sure they dont do anything funny, and to concentrate on picking the litters

hehe! feeling exactly like a nanny

but it was fun~~
we even discovered a rabina plant, and plucked the fruits with the students!
haha! we were lucky not to be caught by the owner
we took lots of photos as well!!
(we all end up playing in the end, forgot all abt the community work we first set out to do le... =p)

students starting to pester me to see the photos
think i will create an online album for them to view and download ba




say "5 Joy"!!!!! ^o^

Khia Soo emails Mum

Modern technology has made it possible for latchkey children to communicate with parents who are still at work when they go home.

For those like Khia Soo, who hardly see their parents, they can always send an email.......



Dear Mummy,

I am feeling very sad.

Today in school, Zhong Guoren - my classmate from China - beat me again, in a Maths test. That boy is an unstoppable genius machine.

Last week, he beat me in sports too.

If he were not here, I would have come in first and gotten a gold.
But because the Government says we must welcome foreign talents to increaseour population and to improve our economy, I got a bronze instead.

This sucks.

At first, we laughed at them, because their English was not very good. Theirmaths and science were good, and their Chinese was excellent (but who caresabout Chinese language, right?).
But then, their Englishgot better and now, they are kicking our backsides in this subject too.

I think we should get the Government to do something about this.

Why didn't you have more babies, Mummy? I wouldn't mind having a brother ora sister to play with. I am an only child, and because you and Daddy are notmaking enough babies, we have to get people from other countries, people who make it hard for me to be number one in my class.

I think you are very selfish to just have me, Mummy.

I don't like to lose, Mummy. I am used to being first in my class. And my school was very small too, like Singapore, so it was easy to be first. Now my school is bigger, and I have to fight harder to be first.

Why can't we just compete with ourselves, among Singaporeans only (okay, and maybe Permanent Residents)?

Why can't they have a new category for all the tests and CCAs? We could have a Best Local Maths Student category and a Best Local Sportsman category, then at least, if I don't win Best Maths Student, I can be Best Local Maths Student and feel better about myself.

Just like my school is ranked one of the Top 20 Value-added Secondary Schools with a Special Assessment Award for Knitting CCA, I also want to be a top student.

Maybe we need to have a new category like "Top 20 Value-addedSecondary Schools (Got China Students)".

This is because our school has smart foreign students and should be rankedseparately so that schools without smart foreign students won't feel so jealous. And, maybe, we should drop Literature as a subject too. I hate Literature, hard to score "A"s.

In fact, we should have streams like EM1 (Local) and EM1 (China andOthers). Let the smart China students have their own stream.

I want to go to university when I grow up, especially the National University of Singapore (NUS), because our newspapers say that NUS is evenbetter than Princeton and Cornell in the United States.

But I hear there are many brilliant China students in NUS, too.

I don't want to be having private tuition until I am 25 years old, just to keep up with my foreign classmates in the Uni. Or else, I will have no time to meet girls and then I will be forced to go to Vietnam or Kelantan to find a wife when I want to start a family.

In fact, I am very upset with foreigners competing with us even in this area.

All the girls I know say that when they finish studying and go to work,they want to marry ang mohs, because Singapore men are unromantic and do not want to know how to make a girl happy.

So, the ang mohs are even stealing ourwomen.

I prefer to marry a Singapore girl, of course, but only if she knows how tocook and wash, and peel my prawns for me (like you, Mummy). But nowadays, Singapore girls are so fierce, just because they study, and earn their own money.

Maybe that is why in Chinatown, I saw this big Singapore Rooster, and it was sitting on eggs. I think the Singapore Hen left him to look after the eggs, because she had to work and do all the things an educated Hen does. (Kumarin our D&D pointed out about the rooster on eggs @ Chinatown CNY05.....rooster lay eggs?? ..now U know why)

I also worry I cannot find a job when I am older. My friend, Ah Hock, tells me his mother feels all these Chinese foreigners are stealing our jobs and our men (and the ang mohs are stealing our women).

That is very scary, Mummy. You told me many China women are in Singapore only to do naughty things, like relieve old men of their Central Provident Fund money.

Once an uncle wrote in the papers that we should catch those foreign women who are tall, have long hair and legs, and wear tight, revealing outfits in black or red and behave coquettishly.

I think we should only accept foreign women who are short, have short hair and legs, and wear loose, covered-up outfits in white or blue, and behave like a man.

Okay, Mummy, I have to go to my Chinese, Maths and Science tuition classesnow.
If I don't go, I won't be able to beat Zhong Guoren.


Your son,
Khia Soo

April Fool Joke?

I cant log into MSN!!!

why??

どうして？？？ 　どうして？？？　　どうして？！！！！ @_@

sigh... finally have some time to chat with frds on net,
yet cant log in?!!

today is april fool, and my comp is playing such a mean trick on me... =(
i never bother to be take care of my comp, and finally, here it comes with vengeance..

cant do anything now..

hope everything will be fine by tmr
(crossing my fingers)