Quidam ~Cirque Du Soleil~

http://www.cirquedusoleil.com/CirqueDuSoleil/en/showstickets/quidam/clip/clip.htm?v=64133FA455CB4CF382E792B2D25F91C9ML

Went to watch Quidam.

a pre-celebration of bday with frd



on our way there~
ask family to come too, but they not interested
they dont know how much fun they missed!!
if there is such performance next time, i will make sure i drag them all there

Such a wonderful day~ =D
there are so many wonderful little things that happened today to be written down one by one.

the performances are simply awesome and spellbinding
except one that is Aerial Contortion in red silk, make me think of the scene of birth of alien or species... 很诡异

my fav one is the German Wheel~ it seems like the wheel is his home, and he lives on the wheel all his life.. the way he control the direction and angle is so precise. there are a few times when we thought that he is going to overspin from the stage to the audience seat, and we are all so nervous, but he stopped just in the nick of time. 帅呀！

还有另一个表演，也是让我紧张得半死
there are 4 little china girls performing diabolos, and 1 of them missed in catching the diabolos with the string when doing a series of difficult stunt movements. and when she redo that part again, everyone was holding their breath, 替她紧张，and sound of the drum beating even make the atmosphere more tense. when she succeed in the second attempt, the applause is really thunderous~ phew!

my heart skipped many beats tonight!
but what's life without some excitement?
this day is the happiest day ever since the past few months of my life~~~

new hair cut

mom's frd told her that there is an exhibition of all sorts of jap food at taka now.
hence, we went shopping there to buy some jap food ingredient for cooking.
too bad we went there after we had our lunch.
otherwise, i am sure mama and i have the eating power to taste the food from the first to the last stall~ hoho!

we went for a hair cut in the morning.
i was tired of my long messy hay, and mom was looking for a change in her hairstyle.
so off we go~
mom cut her hair so short! and even highlighted her hair with red.
i couldnt help laughing at her new hairstyle.
the look is too modern for me to accept at once
haha!
but i think she suit that modern look. look more energetic too

learn to accept

Mouse 停在删除键上，良久。

终究还是有些不舍。

或许，我真的是反应过度了呢？有人说，写这种网络日记，只不过是写给别人看，把自己活给别人看。其实，是有一点，但并不全是，不然就不会从开始一直写到现在了。写这些，是为了整理自己混乱的心事，让它们归之条理。写这些，是为了以后能给自己看，看看当时的自己被什么羁绊过。写这些，是因为，有话想说，找个管道宣泄心情。


我不知道自己会不会再写出什么动人、伤感的心事来。从头到尾看了自己的日记和文章，总围绕着情和爱，无论是蕴涵其中需要细细琢磨的，还是展露于文章字里行间与众人分享的，我也不外乎是个感性之人吧。


可能人天生就有着一个脆弱的心；在 orchard mrt 卖纸巾的老婆婆，面对着路人惊慌地避让，为了自己明天能继续活下去，她承受着。自己的一点施舍让她回应了一个很长时间没有抽动嘴角的微笑；当然，我不是老者，不会用头头是道的文字来形容生活中各方面的情感，只是觉得至少我们生活得好好的，层出不穷的产品在不断地提高着生活的质量，唯有情感的问题，让围城内外的人踱步不定。


伤心了，会在日记里唏哩哗啦地写下自己的眼泪；

开心了，哪怕只是一个简单的 sms 问候都会激动不已的在日记里摘录。

我不知道自己会不会这样的时好时坏，我想我会的，因为我有感情，而且是丰富多变的。


我喜欢喝茶。茶喝到后来是甜的，但要学会去承受它开始的苦涩；
是的，其实我一直很懒惰很虚伪地只想不做地对待自己；
生活是一样的，看自己怎样的去掌握每一天，感情也是一样的，在伤感中颓废、在热烈时激情；
将感情融入生活中，过好了，我会看到每天的日起日落、阴时雨临；过差了，我还是一样地会看到；我选择好好地过。


心已经累了，感到浮躁，想尝试别于以往的新东西，它只是不会张嘴哇啦哇啦地说，又要承受工作的压力、又要承受生活和家的教条琐事、又要承受个人的情感来袭。。如果这三个像买票看场电影那么简单的话，事情顺心时的喜悦也就相对会少几分了吧

为了自己，学会去承受周围不顺心的事。
为了自己，不要给心太多的负荷，也为了生活的品质

Tree top walk，去不了了，没关系，还有下次。
Wakeboarding，取消了，没关系，也还有机会的。
Mooncake party, 不去了，勇敢地拒绝，千万别委屈自己。


看开了，只在一笑之间！

finished backing up

终于 把整个 blog backup 完了。。。
朋友跟我说被 spam后，很有可能就会被 hack了。到时，可能连 blog都会不见。
唉，真是的，真倒霉啊

心情糟透了，搞这些有的没的，弄了好久。
整晚就是 cut and paste cut and paste and cut and paste and cut and paste

也好，那就不写了。反正我的blog也没人有兴趣看。
愿意留下几行字的人也寥寥无几。反而那些广告商还勤快一些。哈哈

stop spamming my blog

气死我了！
一天下来都已经不怎么样的心情都给这破坏了！！！
真倒霉！谁不好选，选上我的blog？？ =(
starting to get so many spam advertisements on my blog....
i believe there is more to come.....
in their comments, they mentioned they bookmark me already.....
there is even porn adverts!!! how can!!!!
arrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!


now i need to waste my time deleting those stupid adv
去死去死去死！！

go to hell!

1st day of school break

Isetan 的 supermarket 有日本的海鲜食物展。
食料都是直接从北海道空运来新加坡。
中午，买了两盒当天空运来的便当当午餐。
好贵哟~ 但吃起来果真不一样。
近几年不能亲自到日本去玩，花些钱吃吃那里的食物也好。^_^
吃得好胀~ 满足的呢~~ =D


过后，捧着被我宠到得意忘形的小腹，一摇三摆地去 Rulang Pri 听讲座。
是个有关 passion for teaching 的讲座。整个讲座毫无冷场，是教书以来，我去过最好玩的workshop了。 能会心的开怀大笑真好~ 主讲者在台上侃侃而谈，幽默又不失道理的谈话内容，使得现场笑声彼起彼落。顶尖成功主讲者的魅力，应该就是如此吧，我真的不介意再多坐一些时候呢！一个人可以是大智若愚，也可以选择以计较琐碎小事的小聪明来过每一天。今天的课，给了我一些启发。 Be SUCCESSful people, dont be success FOOLS. 懂得认清生活目标，享受生活才是最重要的。


当然，今天的茶点也还真不赖~ 光是 Eclair 我就吃了4个。我看我是没什么指望能从控制食量这方面瘦下来了。总是那么馋嘴，怎么瘦呢？I think i will just continue to enjoy my food ba, till the day i got really fat, unbearable to sight, then i will rethink abt dieting (which never take place in the last 24 years, 11months, and 15 days of my life) seriously. =p

在 tea break 时，遇见了曾在华航上碰过一次面的漂亮女生。唉，人家就有这个意志力把身材保持得这么好。可惜，没来得及赞美人家。


学校假期的第一天就如此地过了。

TreeTop Walk (MacRitchie)

http://www.nparks.gov.sg/nparks_cms/display_level2.asp?parkid=8&catid=9

have been saying that i wanted to go this place for more than half a year already..

yet......
me still have not lay any footprints anywhere near that area.

sending out invitation for kahki~
who interested to go together~~~?

半年まえに、この山を知ってから、私はここへ行きたいです。
だれも　いきたいですか？いしょうに　行きませんか？

~Pin Guan Concert~

弟は　私に　コンサート　チケットを　あげた。
彼は　たくさん宿題が　あるから、そして　行かない。
それから、私と　友達と　３人　コンサートへ行く。

玄德は　新しい友達です。
午後に　takaで　彼にあったり、おいしい　イタリア　パスタを　食べたり　した。
彼は　中国ごを習いたいです。　
大学で　中国ごを　習ったことが　あった、でも、全部わすれたね。。。 @_@
haha! same as me~ 記憶が悪いですよ！　=p

私は　いま　日本語を習うけど、彼の日本語はとてもはやい、それから、ぜんぜんわかない。
覚えても、すぐ忘れます。私の日本語は下手いる、ぜひ　勤勉ながんばるね～　
ツアーグアイトに　なりたい：アルバイトをしたり、新しい人に　会いたい、色々などころへ　遊びに行ったり　する　ことが　てきますよ！

玄德は　面白いるくて、気楽で　人いる。
イタリアの食べ物が好きから（特に　パスタ）、イタリアへ行きたいと言いました。
haha! ここは面白い理由ですよ。
彼は　滑稽な　rabbit話と言いました。　=D

Sean は品冠の big fans。そして、品冠のCDを買った、でも、この歌手のサインがない。
人が多いですから。残念ですね～
明日　彼は　タイへ旅行に行く。
海で泳いだり、浜で日焼けをしたり　した。
彼がうらやましいね。。。
anyway, wish him an enjoyable and safe trip~ =)

私たちは　大学で晩ご飯をたべたり、写真を撮ったり　した。
Jeff のpose は面白いですよ～ hehe!
今日晩は　ちょと疲れるが、とても　楽しいです。 =p

ああ、今日はも　教師の日ですよ～


もうすぐ　学校の休みは　来る！！ (^_^)/
oh yeah~~~



ghostly photo by our neighbour on our right~ =p
灵异照片~~ *0*



paisei to ask our right neighbour again, hence we turned to our left neighbour~

this is what my pupils drew on the board before i enter the class (suppose to be a surprise for me, but i somehow know they will do that; after all, i was a student before~) =) 

out of control le.. 

teacher's day 

like a drawing

A frd ask for a pic of me.
the very next day, i received this edited pic in my mailbox.
quite like this special effect, look like a drew poster. ^_^

Kurumi

http://marksboy.myweb.hinet.net/kurumi.htm

（Kurumi）作詩：櫻井和壽　作曲：櫻井和壽編曲：小林武史 & Mr.Children

一位朋友介绍我这个MV，拍得很可爱呢！！
我的日文很破，根本听不懂这首歌在唱什么，也不认识Mr Children。但看了MV了解其含义后，就更喜欢了。现在一般的流行歌就缺少了这份朴实而真切的感动。
err.... 会不会是我年纪大了啊？ ^_^！

这让我想到自己，我曾经的梦想，还能实现吗？
故事里的主人翁是幸福的；他们终究还是勇敢的去追逐他们梦想的人生。
我呢？是否也得等到那把年纪才能实现梦想呢？
或许，到这时，就连追逐梦想的动力都已被现实生活给磨得无影无踪？


朋友也寄了另一个关于i此歌的Link给我，就借来转贴在这吧：

MTV的主旨說的是: “當你年老時，還能記得年輕時的夢想，還能有跟你一起瘋的朋友?”
MTV中的四個中年人，在現實生活中都不是很順遂。
主唱在餐桌前挾著飯發呆所看到的妻女幻影，是指他到了那個年紀卻還是沒有成家。食堂老闆在用餐時間卻一個客人也沒有。鼓手在工地工作，貝斯手開了間小蔬果店有個可怕的妻子….但是，他們為了年輕時的夢想,再一次的會合……
我最喜歡的鏡頭有主角在家裡，想像中浮現的妻子、女兒的樣貌然後痛哭。以及食堂老闆聆聽主角唱歌、淚珠湧出的那一幕。還有貝斯手瞞著老婆偷偷跑出來跟老友見面時的擁抱。以及最後主唱扔掉Mr.Adult紙條時跟一開始淒慘落魄判若兩人般的笑容。附帶一提， 最後出現的年輕人是Mr. Children裡的節奏吉他兼主唱 櫻井和壽(Kazutoshi Sakurai)



好奇之下，便轉向GOOGLE大神求助找出歌詞與一些『前人』的討論發現，共鳴還蠻多的
（不會都是歐吉桑歐巴桑吧 ㄎㄎ）

看了歌詞就知道是鼓勵人去追求夢想的くるみ　(kurumi) 即是 来る未来(kuru mirai)的縮寫

某網友的解釋くるみ也是女子的名字，也就是雙關語歌詞既可以解釋成是對『舊情人』訴說也可以解釋成是對未來的喃喃自語



日文歌詞くるみ
ねぇ　くるみ
この街の景色は君の目にどう映るの？
今の僕はどう見えるの？


ねぇ　くるみ
誰かの優しさも皮肉に聞こえてしまうんだ
そんな時はどうしたらいい？

良かった事だけ思い出して
やけに年老いた気持ちになる
とはいえ暮らしの中で
今　動き出そうとしている
歯車のひとつにならなくてはなぁ
希望の数だけ失望は増える
それでも明日に胸は震える
「どんな事が起こるんだろう？」
想像してみるんだよ


ねぇ　くるみ
時間が何もかも洗い連れ去ってくれれば
生きる事は実に容易い

ねぇ　くるみ
あれからは一度も涙は流してないよ
でも　本気で笑う事も少ない

どこかで掛け違えてきて
気が付けば一つ余ったボタン
同じようにして誰かが　持て余したボタンホールに
出会う事で意味が出来たならいい
出会いの数だけ別れは増える
それでも希望に胸は震える
十字路に出くわすたび
迷いもするだろうけど

今以上をいつも欲しがるくせに
変わらない愛を求め歌う
そうして歯車は回る
この必要以上の負担に
ギシギシ鈍い音をたてながら
希望の数だけ失望は増える
それでも明日に胸は震える
「どんな事が起こるんだろう？」
想像してみよう
出会いの数だけ別れは増える
それでも希望に胸は震える
引き返しちゃいけないよね
進もう　君のいない道の上へ


中文歌詞

喂～ Kurumi這街道的景色在你的眼中是什麼模樣呢？
現在的我看起來又是怎樣？

喂～ Kurumi若是旁人的關心也讓你聽起來像挖苦似的
那個時候又該怎麼做才好呢？

只是回想起過去美好的一切
卻讓人的心情更自覺得瀕老
在這樣的生活裡頭
如今 我正要動起來了
因為我不想只做個齒輪而已啊
伴隨希望的衍生而增加的失望
即使如此明天的內心依舊悸動
「究竟會發生什麼事呢？」
試著去想像看看吧

喂～ Kurumi
假使時間的河流會將一切給洗刷帶走的話
那生存這件事就變得再容易不過了

喂～ Kurumi
在那之後我一次也不曾讓眼淚流下來
可是 讓我能夠開懷真心的笑卻也很少

不知在哪裡扣錯了
發覺到的時候才知道多了一個鈕扣
就像這樣地要是能和某個有多的鈕扣穴的人相遇
讓一切變得有意義就好了
伴隨邂逅的次數而增加的別離
即使如此內心仍因希望而跳動
每當在走過十字路口的時候
難免也會有迷失方向的時候

總是乞望想擁有比眼前更多
為了追求那不變的愛而高歌
於是齒輪不停轉動
超過必要的負擔 讓齒輪一面發出嘎吱的聲響
伴隨希望的衍生而增加的失望
即使如此明天的內心依舊悸動
「究竟會發生什麼事呢？」
試著去想像看看吧
伴隨邂逅的次數而增加的別離
即使如此內心仍因希望而跳動
現在已經不能夠回頭了啊向
前走吧 踏上沒有你的這條路

Graduation Parade

after 11 weeks... finally... Passing Out Parade



mama and i waiting enthusiastically for the parade to start.
we woke up very early this day; at 6am!! so as to catch the first ferry to Tekong.
i was yawning all my way there...



Bravo Platoon 2~
me cant help noticing a funny guy in this platoon.
he is the 3rd guy counting from the left. first row.
his head was in this position (looking 45 degree upwards) throughout the whole ceremony.
haha! what's so nice to look up there?? =p



standing very still



change formation


changing to sergeant chevron~
family members are suppose to take down the corporal chevron and replace it with the sergeant chevron.
haha! me had a hard time treasure hunting for this little piece of cloth.
bro was not able to talk, and had to stand very still. the only clue i can get from him was his action of rolling his eyes, and tilting his brow.
i was fumbling panickly by opening all his pockets in the end.
呵呵！ 看起来像搜身多一点。被我弄得毫无美感可言。=p



毕业啦~



yoyo~ buddies

i was standing beside my bro when a Lieutenant Colonel (2 crab on shoulder, i only found out abt the ranking sympol after bro told me on the way home) come talk to me.
he seems very interested abt our background when he know we are from taiwan. And he talk non-stop abt his taiwan experience. Haha! i donno what was he talking, and i was lost with all the army terms he used, but i still politely pretend to talk to him a bit，敷衍敷衍他一下。。
But my bro was very happy (donno why was he happy at that time, but now i know). i took a pic of them both.
well, at least that was not too bad, as soon later, a General come join him, and he too; Talks a lot. But they are very nice pple. 没什么架子。 =p

in the end, we all took a pic together.


Bro with General






bro was very paisei when taking pic with me there.
and very impatient too; always hurrying me.
haiz..
but he was very keen in taking pics with all his buddies.
and i become his personal camera man, following him around



Blackie is the most famous dog at Tekong.
it is a stray dog, and it roams the island freely. But it always will attend the flag rising and lowering ceremony without fail everyday. it will sit in front of the pole and watch the Singapore flag. that is its usual spot. It even howl with the music during the ceremony everytime.
a dog who likes to sing. cool huh~

however, bro told me that it was locked up in the tennis court early this day. to ensure the smooth running of the graduation parade. Now it was then released.



waiting for the federal bus



going home~ ^_^
i like this pic, they didnt know i was taking pic of them secretly at the back.



after a sumptuous italian lunch

Gedicht VI

Here is another great work by Chris~ =)


Hamburg, den 03.08.2005
23:51 Uhr

Gegenseitige, ungleichzeitige Liebe

Dort lag sie gestern.
Hier liegt sie heute.

„Du liebst mich!
Kleine, bitte guck’ nicht so.
Es tut mir Leid…
was sag’ ich nur…
…
Ich
…
liebe
Dich
nicht!“

„Warte, ich liebe Dich jetzt!
Aber… wo gehst Du hin?
Bleib doch!!
…bleib doch…bitte…
…fort…
…liebe mich doch!!“

Was ist Morgen?

Ich tu die Haende falten,
spuer’ sie nicht mehr, die Kalten,
und stosse aus meinem Munde,
dem Nachthimmel zur Kunde,
tausend Sternschnuppen weit hinaus.

Moegest Du eine von ihnen sehen,
die Dich zu suchen,
die Nacht durchwehen.

Wuerd’ der Morgen nur die Zeiten einen,
so hoert’ ich auf zu weinen.

dont hesitate to marry a rich, dumb guy~

haha~ 姐妹们！注意啦~ dont hesitate to marry a rich, dumb guy~ ^_^

~~~~~

決定智商的八對基因全部都是位於 X染色體上面，
然後男生是 X Y，X 是來自母親，Y 是來自父親。

所以男生的智商全部都是來自母親的遺傳 。

然後女生是 XX，所以女生的智商是父親跟母親各有一半影響。然後說，因為女生的智商是父親母親都有影響，所以會有中和的效應。

所以女生智商的分布會呈現自然分布 (normaldistribution )，就是倒鐘狀，中間最多，兩邊較少。

然後男生因為是完全只受一方影響，所以男生智商分布會呈現在偏向在兩個極端。


也就是說，男生天才比較多，但是同時，蠢材之中也是男生特別多。

~~~~~~~~~~

這個故事告訴我們什麼？
1、「你要判斷一個男生聰不聰明，看他媽媽就知道了。」
2、 然後我們用機率來算：生男孩的機率 = 1 /2，生女孩的機率 = 1 / 2。

生男孩的時候，母親對於男孩智商的影響力 = 1。
生女孩的時候，母親對於女孩智商的影響力 = 1 / 2。

所以說母親跟父親對於下一代智商的影響力 ( 期望值 )的比例是:1*1/2 + 1/2*1/2 ： 0*1/2+ 1/2*1/2 =0.75：0.25 = 3： 1 = 母：父


所以說， 如果你：
1、是男生，如果你覺得你很笨的話。你千萬要娶一個聰明的女生來！這樣你小孩翻盤的機率還有七成五，人生還是充滿了希望。

2、是女生，如果你覺得你很笨的話，糟糕了～因為，你翻人家盤的機率有七成五 .....

3 、當你看到一個男生很聰明的時候，則，他父親很聰明的機率是 0 %( 應該說，就算他父親很聰明，也對他是沒有影響的 )，可是他母親很聰明的機率是100%。


所以說，如果你在考慮要嫁給一個很聰明的男生時，你就要小心他媽媽，可能會是一個很會算計的婆婆。反之，當你看到一個男生很笨的時候，沒錯，他通常會很有錢，這是上帝的安排，上帝為了不讓人類滅亡，所以他會讓很笨的人很有錢，這樣他才能娶到聰明的女生。

總之，當你看到有錢但很笨的男生的時候，不要猶豫，嫁給他！！！

Those days

早上去了邮局一趟，去领一个错过了的包裹。

是他寄来的，打开包裹时，感到一丝温暖
他还是关心着我的。

依旧如印象中的体贴到令人心疼；知道我打算报名JLPT后，隔天马上就帮我买了两本日语模拟考题，和一本杂志。知道我不见他，他还是邮寄来了，叮咛着我考试该注意的事项。他多少是宠着我的。常常顺着我莫名的怪脾气，和我的任性。只是，他最爱的是他自己吧，自私的欺骗也成了理所当然。但个性使然，我无法接受有了瑕疵的爱情，一丝丝的不完美，就像结了疤的伤，永远存在。我刚烈固执的性格，他早应该知道了。

突然想起曾经和他上街的光景。那天我穿了新鞋，把脚后跟的皮磨破了，他二话不说，买了ok梆，蹲下来要帮我把鞋子脱下包伤口。也许我仍旧裹足于传统思想中吧，这感觉是震撼的，受宠若惊之余，我羞涩地躲着他的手。自长大懂事后，就没有人如此对我过了……

至少想起这个男人时，不是所有的回忆都是不堪回首的。开心、欢笑的日子，我们也曾有过。


又想到前几天他说的那句话
“我想我再也找不到会喜欢上我的人了……”

我理应为他如报应似的遭遇感到快乐才是，但却没有。
他那股理直气壮的高傲与自负，在他的语气里，已消失得无影无踪。
取而代之，涌上我心头的是一股茫然感，为什么要尝到被玩弄践踏的滋味后，他才会如此怀念曾被他视为食之无味，弃之可惜的过去？
他太高估自己了，如此有魅力及手腕的交际花，岂是他能捉得到的？
而他，是因为输得太惨，而珍惜起往昔。
霎那间，我嫉妒起那位女子，如果可以，如果我能如她一般潇洒地抛开一切道德的包袱，我愿意以和他的所有所有的回忆，来换取玩弄他感情的一天。。

但我知道，我是做不到的。道德观太重了……
永远只会虚张声势，靠着幻想来安慰自己


忽然感到有点可悲，为自己，为他

Mama's back

Mom returned from taiwan today. Me feel so happy~~ Guess I had enough of the days being so free, and eating out always. I miss the feeling of someone opening the door for me at home when I press the door bell. I miss the days when I can always ask mom about what we having for dinner, instead of bro asking me. I have to go back to my normal life though; no more slacking, no more sleeping late, and have to obey the curfew.


Mom bought a skirt for me. Simply love it~
it is a beautiful pink handmade skirt, and the tailoring is very unique; seamless, made from one whole piece of cloth, hence, no joining at the sides.
But when I heard the price, almost fainted….
It costs NT39900, which is almost $2000 Singapore dollars!!
She also bought another same black one for herself.
Well, guess mama must be in a very good mood that day when she went for shopping. My heart will ache for days, erm, no no, think will ache for months if I spend this amount on a skirt. ^_^!!


Me try on the skirt, it is a bit big for me. It hangs loosely on my hip, under my belly button.
Haha! Become low cut skirt le~
However, I dont wanna send it for alteration, otherwise it will have seams after it is trimmed to my size. And mine was the last piece when mama bought it, therefore, not able to go back to change the size.
Haiz.. nvm then, I can still wear it when I become fat (hope not) in future. =p

The Istana building

That is the place we heading to~


The Istana building was built by the british colonial government to house its governors. Completed in 1869, it was then known as government house.



after touring the ground floor.


we are not allowed to take any photos inside the istana building.
in the building, the first best thing is the cooling aircon~~ ^_^
the chandelier lightings made the place look very grand, and majestic. it is just like a palace~
but the building is a bit small though, as compared to other bigger countries' government house. it was renovated extensively in 1998 to add more space and modern day conveniences.

we are allowed to tour the gound floor only.
There is a reception hall on the left. it is here that foreign and local politicians are introduced to visit president. as its name implies, tea receptions are held here as well.
On the right there is State Room or Victoria Room.
Behind the staircase, there is the entrence to the Banquet Hall. In there, it displayed the gifts sent by other countries from many parts of the world.

We finished seeing these 3 places very soon, and was rather reluctant to step outside, into the hot sun again.



Smilez~~~

First sight of president

so many policemen~~




i was talking to my bro, when he suddenly paused our conversation
i turned around, and saw the President of Singapore passing by

bro quickly took a pic of him ^_^

we are lucky, cos the pple visiting istana are not always able to see president.
this is our first visit, and we managed to see him~









the crowd around him~ @_@
so many pple

Resting, enjoying the breeze

sprawling parkland of Istana

Went to istana early in the morning.

After living in Singapore for so many years, it is unbelivable that i have never been there before.

it is the official residence of the president of singapore, located on a hill over 100 acres at orchard area.

a very nice place, i like the scenery there.
it is lush with tall magnificent trees, and even has a 9 hole golf course~
there were lots of people there, picnicing on the grass patch, and many pple were drawing too

啊，写意的一天

we didnt manage to finish touring the whole area. as the people are getting more and more towards the afternoon. 人太多就觉得杂乱, therefore, we left earlier than our scheduled time. we even get to see the president! and managed to catch a few photos of him~ hoho!







itchy itchy scratch scratch ^_^


I like this pic hoho!



cute boy~
so engrossed in his drawing
but i think he gonna need a thicker pair of glasses soon =p





so many pple drawing and picnicing here
nice view, beautiful weather~
i suddenly regret of not bringing along a sketchbook
but nvm, i brought along somethng better~ my camera~ hoho!
it definitely will be better than my drawing

A series of Unfortunate Events

today is simply a continuation of yesterday's horror

when i woke up in the morning, i got a big shock when i look into the mirror!

my left eye was swollen!!! i can hardly open half of my left eye

hence, my eyes were one big one small..... very obvious

bro said pple can even see the diff of the size of my eye even if i wear glasses..

and he is such a heartless creature!! he laugh at my misery and call me 大小眼

i tried applying ice on my eyelid, but no use... sigh...

so basically, i stay at home for the whole day, feel so depressed, dont want to go out at all


it was only towards evening time, my swollen eyes become better.
feel so happy! i was so worried that my eyes will look like that forever!

Chagall

仰望星空， 让我想起 Chagall
恋爱的人，总是浮在城市半空中
视若无睹的 忘情忘我紧紧眷恋着
连公鸡都在温柔歌颂

我看爱情，爱情看我；两头
我唱了歌
歌给我美好期待中， 你在哪里呢？
我们将在那个城市相逢？
小猫想做见证趴在窗口
流星划过我们就恋爱了~

你还没来，我一个人就跳跳舞解闷
你还没来，我一个人看着Chagall画册
虚构着可能属于我的美丽爱情
怎么忽然流泪了？
后来又笑开了~





being singing this song the whole evening
the rhythm spinning in my head even now!
like this song a lot~ Chagall

a Horrible day in School

不可思议！！！

真无法相信！那种只会在漫画里出现的情节居然在我身上上演了

今天真的倒霉透了。。。唉。。。。

带领一年级的学生到电脑室，从教室出发，明明排好队的，走不到一半，就听见学生紧张地叫我。
一回头，就是一幅恐怖的景象：原本浩浩荡荡的队伍，只剩下不到1/3 只小猫！！

老天啊！！
两个两个排的队伍，就这么简单
居然。。。居然。。。居然这样子也可以跟丢！！！！ faint!!!
神啊！！救救我吧！！！~
where is the rest of the class???

没办法，只好从剩下的小猫中派一个代表，去把那些糊涂蛋找回来。
但是。。。。可恨啊！！
我叫她赶快去找，但忘了提醒她不要大声喊叫。。。
她一下子就跑出我的控制范围，兴奋地执行她的任务去了
边跑边喊：“Jammy! 1 peace! where are you? you go wrong way le! chen lao shi waiting for all of you. we are going to another block, not this one!!!~~~....." *_*!!

真是太好了，我选了一个扩音器
还是活动的呢。。。
这下子block A 的老师们都知道了。
校长室，hod room 都在block A。这下我可出名了~
哭啊~~

经过一番折腾，扩音器终于找到那群小猫，把她们带来了。
但这群瓜，吵吵闹闹，又笑又跑又尖叫。
她们真的考验着我的每一根神经。。
闭上眼，深呼吸，
吸气、吐气、吸气、吐气
睁开眼时，她们的头都还是长着两只角

忍～～～～

我要忍～～～～～

要命的是祸不单行，校长正好经过，她又皱起了眉头。
为什么总是会被她抓到我最尴尬的时候呢？



不行了，山洪快挡不住了。。
咬着牙，继续带她们去Ｂ座的电脑室。


一进电脑室，就开始追究责任开骂了

骂到口沫横飞，她们还是一愣一愣的

唉！气死我了


最后查出来，原来是 Jammy 找　Sara 讲话。
这两个没药救的，没跟紧前面的同学，走丢了，还自作聪明地把剩下来的队伍也拐去Ａ座。
不过也实在真的是％—＊＃
她们俩没看路就算了，她们后面的同学呢？难道没看到前面的队伍吗？？

晕倒～～

这场闹剧，在Ａ座上演了半小时。
原本１小时的电脑课，只上了５分钟：

半小时找人，２５分钟骂人，５分钟开机和关机。

空港で

海の青さに 　

空の青

南の風に　 綠葉の

芭蕉や胡姬花など情に　 手を招く

常夏の国 　我ぃたシンガポル

Visitors at night

a moth/butterfly look alike creature flew into living room while i was marking last night.
draw in by the lights..

it has quite a unique shape. looks like a seashell.
at first i thought it was a bee or beetle. cos the sound of it flapping its wings was quite loud..

it accompanys me throughout the rest of my marking;
while i was busy marking, it was busy bumping against the ceiling while flying.
till this moment when it hit the rotating ceiling fan...
such a loud sound, especially it was at night
and it fell directly to the floor...

must hurt a lot
and its wings were torn and broken.

and it struggled in pain..

i didnt do anything, but just squat there and watch


i couldnt do anything too..


it struggled and turned for another hour or so
seems to be so much pain to endure...
in the end, i use a thick layer of tissue to catch it, and flush it down the drain to end its torture.


Tonight, another same species moth/butterfly flew in again.
took a pic of it

this one is lucky, cos i switched off the fan
and i guided it out by closing the lights and "usher" it out with a broom =p

I took this pic

this is my fav pic among the photos i took for the night ^_^

Went downstairs to take pic, waiting for the sun to set



looks like on holiday, but actually i am not..still got tons of work to do, but i just cast that aside.. haha~ cool huh

I am BROKE~~ T_T

i am broke now.....

and i wont be able to go out for quite sometime, as i often will spend money when i go out...
from now on, if i have go out, i will hypnotize myself to "hear nothing, see nothing, and say nothing" to those tempting displays and good food in shopping centres...

erm, that's tough... haiz.. but no choice...


so haha~
for all my friends who wanna meet up with me, guess will have to wait for sometime le. (unless treat me~ hehe!)

i decide to live a recluse's life for a period of time, till i regain my financial strength~ haha

good in a way ba; i can concentrate on the more beneficial things which i should place more importance on...

2nd hand digi cam, anyone?

I wanna get a new digi cam, and saving hard for it.

but feeling a bit guilty... cos there are quite a few cameras in my family already...

thinking of selling away a Nikon coolpix digi cam which bought abt 4 years back.. didnt use it much actually, and before i realize it, it has turned obsolete. I remembered that it was rather expensive when family bought it at that time(台币一万五千多).

However, dont think anyone would want a 3mp digi camera now. =(

I am a Cat ~Miao~ =^.^=

If you know your Birthday, then know the animal you are.
Your Birthday is on:......The Animal you are:

January 01 - 09 Dog
January 10 - 24 Mouse
January 25 - 31 Lion

February 01 - 05 Cat
February 06 - 14 Dove
February 15 - 21 Turtle
February 22 - 28 Panther

March 01 - 12 Monkey
March 13 - 15 Lion
March 16 - 22 Mouse
March 23 - 31 Cat

April 01 - 03 Dog
April 04 - 14 Panther
April 15 - 26 Mouse
April 27 - 30 Turtle

May 01 - 13 Monkey
May 14 - 21 Dove
May 22 - 31 Lion

June 01 - 03 Mouse
June 04 - 14 Turtle
June 15 - 20 Dog
June 21 - 24 Monkey
June 25 - 30 Cat

July 01 - 09 Mouse
July 10 - 15 Dog
July 16 - 26 Dove
July 27 - 31 Cat

August 01 - 15 Monkey
August 16 - 25 Mouse
August 26 - 31 Turtle

September 01 - 14 Dove
September 15 - 27 Cat
September 28 - 30 Dog

October 01 - 15 Monkey
October 16 - 27 Turtle
October 28 - 31 Panther

November 01 - 16 Lion
November 17 - 30 Cat

December 01 - 16 Dog
December 17 - 25 Monkey
December 26 - 31 Dove

=================================

Your characteristics if you are:

Dog:
A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

Mouse:
Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder, people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-togethers. However, you are sensitive, which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

Lion:
Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs! Well, well... hence some people could even take an advantage, flatter you to the maximum and get their work done. So be careful.

Cat:
An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you're cool, when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

Turtle:
You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

Dove:
You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love.

Panther:
You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

Monkey:
Very impatient and hyper! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are.

cheers~~~~~~

got a bit drunk tonight

face flushed and hot...... look like monkey's ass now



hahaha







but feelinng high~~~



how come both my bro are as usual leh??/// they drink more than me





mom is on the sofa sleeping already...... hohoho



unconscious and snroing loudy too





hahahaaqa



i will go join her later


think i better go join her soon

no use stugglingg with setting papers



so many typos



~~~~hahaha

Gedicht

havent check my mail for ages..

and i received a surprise letter from a good old friend. Cant believe it~ he actually spend time and translate his poem to english for me. hoho!

thanks a lot to him~
wish i can understand German soon in future. After i mastered my jap, that is. haha!
think will have to wait for a long time before that day really come.

"Gedicht" means poem. and he uses ancient roman numbers to number them. The poem was about his personal misbehaviour during a relationship! hohoho! how exciting~~~~
this can be one of the good motivations for me to learn german, to 八卦 about other's life~
hehe! such a busybody huh? =p

here are the poems by this talented poet~ : ^_^
(borrowing and putting it up here first, hope he doesnt mind, hey, it is a crime not to share good poems!! and i will wait till that day when i can understand and fully appreciate it...)


Gedicht III

Imma
(Im Park eines grossen, auf einem kleinen Huegel liegenden Herrenhauses aus dem 19. Jahrhundert; Jung naehert sich wie die Abende zuvor der Terrasse und dem dortigen, einzigen erleuchteten Fenster des Hauses.
Hier liegt das Zimmer Immas.)

Jung:
Soweit ist es schon gekommen, schleiche wie ein Tier
Durch dichtes Blaetterwerk, darf mich nicht zeigen
Muss verborgen mich halten und eisern schweigen,
Aber Halt! Ich sehe sie, ach! Wie wird da mir.
Kann sie etwas ahnen?
Guckt so befremdet um sich.
Das sollt’ mich mahnen.
Spuert sie vielleicht mich?
(Imma oeffnet das grosse Fenster, tritt heran, blickt suchend hinaus.)

Imma:
Mir war, hier ist noch wer
Doch seh’ ich niemanden.
Ach, der Park scheint leer-
Keiner tut sich hier verirren!
(Imma schliesst das Fenster wieder. Jung aus dem Schatten tretend, dorthin er sich fluechtete.)

Jung:
Sie fuehlte meine Gegenwart!
Ich hoerte ihre Worte zart!
(Wieder durch das Fenster blickend.)
Schoen sie zu sehen
Doch will ich mehr
Brauch’ ich mehr.
Wie es ueberstehen?
Dort nur im Hemd sitzt sie und liest,
Die langen Beine uebereinandergeschlagen
Das Blut mir zu Kopfe schiesst.
Heisse Lust beginnt zu nagen
Ihren Koerper zu erblicken
Ihn immer wieder zu beruehren
Ihn vom guten Vorsatz abzufuehren.
In Ihrer Seele tiefen Sumpf zu schicken
Feuer und Eis zu spueren.
(Imma steht auf, das Hemd gleitet zu Boden, fuer einen Augenblick steht sie gaenzlich unbekleidet im Zimmer. Sie dreht sich zum Fenster, die Arme vor den Bruesten verschraenkt. Eine Haarstraehne haengt ihr ins Gesicht. Sie geht langsam zwei Schritte auf das Fenster zu, haelt inne und kneift die Augen zusammen. Dann dreht sie sich entschlossen um und schluepft in ihr Nachthemd.
Das Licht geht aus.)

Jung (nach einiger Zeit; wieder in der ihn verbergenden Ecke, in die er sich abermals fluechtete):
Was habe ich gemacht?
Was habe ich gedacht?
Beinah waer’s gescheh’n
Und sie haette mich geseh’n!
Fort muss ich!
Einen klaren Gedanken fassen!
Darf nicht so gehen mich lassen-
mir scheint ich habe einen Stich!
(Jung kommt hervor, laeuft in gebueckter Haltung von der Terrasse in den Park herab. Vorbei an den Statuen griechisch-roemischer Gottheiten, manchmal auf von Blumen umsaeumten Wegen, manchmal auf von Baeumen Ueberschatteten. Er gelangt zu einem engen Pfad, der ihn inmitten eines Waldes fuehrt. Er endet auf einer Lichtung vor einem alten Brunnen, der auf drei Stufen erhoeht steht, im Wald. Der Mond scheint voll und der Himmel ist sternenklar. Jung legt sich auf die Stufen, den Oberkoerper am Brunnen angelehnt.)

Jung:
Hab’ um dies’ Gefuehl erst nicht gewusst,
Dies lodernd Feuer in der engen Brust.
Es hat mich uebermannt
Einfach ueberrannt!
Aber kann’s denn Schande sein?
Aufrichtigste Sehnsucht,
Ernsthafteste Leidenschaft.
Manchmal dunkel und verrucht,
Manchmal weich und sacht.
So ist die Antwort wohl ein „Nein“.
(Jung steht auf, geht die Stufen hinab und stellt sich auf die Wiese, die Lichtung. Er spricht laut.)
Jung:
Was tut ein verliebtes Herz
nicht alles in seinem Schmerz.
(Traurig lachend.)
Durchs fremde Fenster seh’n
In ihrer Schoenheit sich ergeh’n;
Unrecht macht’ ich mir zu Recht.
Bin aber deshalb nicht gleich schlecht.
Habe versucht, ohne ihr zu schaden,
ohne dass sie es erfaehrt,
in ihren Bildern mich gesund zu baden.
Es war nicht verkehrt!
(Eine kurze Pause.)
Wie die Haare um Deine Schultern fallen,
Moecht’ auch ich Dich innigst so umwallen.
Ach, fuelle doch dies Loch in mir,
Wie dann auch ich
Fuer Dich,
In Dir.
(Zum Mond aufblickend.)
Es ist schon tiefe Nacht
Und heute werd’ ich hier nichts mehr.
Bin ganz geschafft
Und innerlich ermuedend leer.
(Jung legt sich nieder auf die Erde, dreht sich erst noch ein paar Mal von der einen zur anderen Seite und schlaeft dann ein.)
(Aus dem Waldesdickicht tritt jemand auf die Lichtung. Wie die Person in den Mondschein tritt, ist zu erkennen, dass es Imma ist. Sie geht zu Jung und kniet sich neben seinen Kopf.
Sie laechelt.)

Imma:
Ach mein Dummerchen,
Haett’st Du was gefragt,
Ich haett’ auch was gesagt.
Du gabst vor, nicht da zu sein,
Ich so tat, als waehnt’ ich mich allein.
Konnten beide nichts sagen
Es immer nur im Stillen tragen.
Nacht fuer Nacht,
Sah Dich kommen und geh’n,
Liess es stets gescheh’n-
Ich war entfacht.
( Imma streift ihren Mantel ab und legt ihn ueber Jung. Sie blickt ihn noch einen kurzen Moment an und laeuft dann, nur im Nachthemd, zurueck ins Haus.)


Gedicht IV

Verfallenheit
In ihrer Aura Laken
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In der Tiefe – Kraken.



Hamburg, irgendwann 2003

Das Gestaendnis

Morgen ist's, Du raekelst dich,
noch ueberall stiller Morgenschein.
Ich stehe auf, zu Haus’, und frage mich,
ist sie wohl zu Haus allein?
Abend wird's, ich denk' an Dich,
der Himmel so verfuehrerisch violett.
Ich klopfe an bei Dir und erklaere mich,
heimlich sei’st Du mir schon lange sehr adrett.
Ich fand fuer Dich damals nur dies eine Wort,
schaemte mich und wuenschte mich weit fort.
Doch glaub mir, waere ich gescheiter,
so erfaend’ ich fuer Dich Woerter, immer weiter.


Gedicht V

Hamburg, Winter 2003/2004
(zwischen November 2003 und Maerz 2004)
Aenderung am 22.05.2005; 16:26 Uhr)
Aenderung am 14.06.2005; 13:05 Uhr)
Aenderung am 26.06.2005; 16:53 Uhr)


CuT (nur eine Ansicht)

Was lauf ich fort?
Hatt’ ich doch Dich.
Will immer nur nach dort,
Denke immer nur an mich.
Du gabst mir viel,
doch zu viel nahm ich.
Durch mich, Deine Welt zerfiel,
bin durch und durch verderblich.
Gedenke gern den rauschenden Zeiten,
wir flogen die Hoeh’n herauf
und golden sahen wir die Weiten,
schauten der Welt raetselhaften Lauf.
Still und ernst ist dieser Abend.
Ich verneige mich mit laechelndem Gesicht,
Stehe vor Dir in gluecklichem Licht,
Mich selbst nicht ahnend.
Abschied von gluecklicher Zeit,
Ueberbringe ich.
Zitternd gehe ich so weit,
Verfluche mich.
Die mich einst verliess, komme zurueck,
Ich hoffe es.
Sie bringe heim mein Glueck,
Ich wuensche es.
Wie die Botschaft ausgesprochen,
erschleicht mich ein widerwaertiges Gefuehl:
Die Wahrheit hat errochen,
Den Geist, dem ich damals noch verfiel.
Deine Traenen quellen,
Mein Laecheln staehlern steht.
Dich zu verprellen,
Mein Herz vergeht.
In der Ferne seh’ ich Dich entschwinden,
Noch immer schmerzt die Brust.
Nie werd ich dies verwinden,
Nichts ist mir hier noch Trost.
Da zieht eine neue Einsicht herauf:
Das Glueck, es war schon da,
Aber ich nur immer in die Ferne sah.
So nimmt statt Glueck Unglueck seinen Lauf.
Irre strauchelnd nun durch oedes Heidekraut,
Traeume naiv von meiner ersten Braut.
Unheilvoll zieht die Nacht heran,
ganz leise und geduckt.
Ach! Wenn Gott mich von der Welt hier naehme,
vorbei waer all der plagend Geister Haeme!
Am Morgen erinnert nichts daran,
Bin von Finsternis verschluckt.



oops... think i lost the part I and II... =(

impromptu dinner

昨晚吃了晚餐后，这群明明很累，又不甘愿太早回家的人（哈哈，也可能只有我吧），又大费周章地跑去吃 icecream。

有点疯狂，但感觉还不错~ 嘻嘻~
这种偷来的自由，即便短暂，却也消除了这几天下来的燥闷。
不知怎么搞的，昨天脾气失控，居然拿笔丢学生。
教书以来，从没有过。而且还真丢脸，笔没打中目标，反而中了坐在旁边的同学。 *_*
笔飞出去的那一霎那，不止是学生，连自己也被吓到了。

嗯，我该不会是得了燥郁症吧？

如果是的话，妈呀，那可惨了……这可是更年期的症状啊~~


吃完冰，喉咙就开始痒，老想咳嗽
这是不是意味着不该乱溜达？


夜深了，胡思乱想

dont dare to sleep

once a friend recommended me a Thai horror movie, Shutter.
It was abt taken photos which had supernatual beings.
it is really scary... dont dare to sleep now, after watching it... =(
i watched many many ghost movies. ju-on, wishing stairs, the ring, sixth sense, and many others, and i am not affected after watching. But this one is this really terrifying, cos the things acted in the movie are so common in daily life.

i always have this problem of stiff shoulder and neck... and now, feeling kind of eerie.. >.<


I do believe there are such spooky spirits photos exist, as i remembered there are many tv shows in taiwan, asking pple to send in their photos and video of unnatual things. And there will be a psyche to decipher the message the spirit want to convey.

i praying hard i will never get to take such photos or videos in my life.



wish someone can accompany me tonight.
my snoopy doll is no use, although i hug it tight. =(