like a drawing

A frd ask for a pic of me.
the very next day, i received this edited pic in my mailbox.
quite like this special effect, look like a drew poster. ^_^

Kurumi

http://marksboy.myweb.hinet.net/kurumi.htm

（Kurumi）作詩：櫻井和壽　作曲：櫻井和壽編曲：小林武史 & Mr.Children

一位朋友介绍我这个MV，拍得很可爱呢！！
我的日文很破，根本听不懂这首歌在唱什么，也不认识Mr Children。但看了MV了解其含义后，就更喜欢了。现在一般的流行歌就缺少了这份朴实而真切的感动。
err.... 会不会是我年纪大了啊？ ^_^！

这让我想到自己，我曾经的梦想，还能实现吗？
故事里的主人翁是幸福的；他们终究还是勇敢的去追逐他们梦想的人生。
我呢？是否也得等到那把年纪才能实现梦想呢？
或许，到这时，就连追逐梦想的动力都已被现实生活给磨得无影无踪？


朋友也寄了另一个关于i此歌的Link给我，就借来转贴在这吧：

MTV的主旨說的是: “當你年老時，還能記得年輕時的夢想，還能有跟你一起瘋的朋友?”
MTV中的四個中年人，在現實生活中都不是很順遂。
主唱在餐桌前挾著飯發呆所看到的妻女幻影，是指他到了那個年紀卻還是沒有成家。食堂老闆在用餐時間卻一個客人也沒有。鼓手在工地工作，貝斯手開了間小蔬果店有個可怕的妻子….但是，他們為了年輕時的夢想,再一次的會合……
我最喜歡的鏡頭有主角在家裡，想像中浮現的妻子、女兒的樣貌然後痛哭。以及食堂老闆聆聽主角唱歌、淚珠湧出的那一幕。還有貝斯手瞞著老婆偷偷跑出來跟老友見面時的擁抱。以及最後主唱扔掉Mr.Adult紙條時跟一開始淒慘落魄判若兩人般的笑容。附帶一提， 最後出現的年輕人是Mr. Children裡的節奏吉他兼主唱 櫻井和壽(Kazutoshi Sakurai)



好奇之下，便轉向GOOGLE大神求助找出歌詞與一些『前人』的討論發現，共鳴還蠻多的
（不會都是歐吉桑歐巴桑吧 ㄎㄎ）

看了歌詞就知道是鼓勵人去追求夢想的くるみ　(kurumi) 即是 来る未来(kuru mirai)的縮寫

某網友的解釋くるみ也是女子的名字，也就是雙關語歌詞既可以解釋成是對『舊情人』訴說也可以解釋成是對未來的喃喃自語



日文歌詞くるみ
ねぇ　くるみ
この街の景色は君の目にどう映るの？
今の僕はどう見えるの？


ねぇ　くるみ
誰かの優しさも皮肉に聞こえてしまうんだ
そんな時はどうしたらいい？

良かった事だけ思い出して
やけに年老いた気持ちになる
とはいえ暮らしの中で
今　動き出そうとしている
歯車のひとつにならなくてはなぁ
希望の数だけ失望は増える
それでも明日に胸は震える
「どんな事が起こるんだろう？」
想像してみるんだよ


ねぇ　くるみ
時間が何もかも洗い連れ去ってくれれば
生きる事は実に容易い

ねぇ　くるみ
あれからは一度も涙は流してないよ
でも　本気で笑う事も少ない

どこかで掛け違えてきて
気が付けば一つ余ったボタン
同じようにして誰かが　持て余したボタンホールに
出会う事で意味が出来たならいい
出会いの数だけ別れは増える
それでも希望に胸は震える
十字路に出くわすたび
迷いもするだろうけど

今以上をいつも欲しがるくせに
変わらない愛を求め歌う
そうして歯車は回る
この必要以上の負担に
ギシギシ鈍い音をたてながら
希望の数だけ失望は増える
それでも明日に胸は震える
「どんな事が起こるんだろう？」
想像してみよう
出会いの数だけ別れは増える
それでも希望に胸は震える
引き返しちゃいけないよね
進もう　君のいない道の上へ


中文歌詞

喂～ Kurumi這街道的景色在你的眼中是什麼模樣呢？
現在的我看起來又是怎樣？

喂～ Kurumi若是旁人的關心也讓你聽起來像挖苦似的
那個時候又該怎麼做才好呢？

只是回想起過去美好的一切
卻讓人的心情更自覺得瀕老
在這樣的生活裡頭
如今 我正要動起來了
因為我不想只做個齒輪而已啊
伴隨希望的衍生而增加的失望
即使如此明天的內心依舊悸動
「究竟會發生什麼事呢？」
試著去想像看看吧

喂～ Kurumi
假使時間的河流會將一切給洗刷帶走的話
那生存這件事就變得再容易不過了

喂～ Kurumi
在那之後我一次也不曾讓眼淚流下來
可是 讓我能夠開懷真心的笑卻也很少

不知在哪裡扣錯了
發覺到的時候才知道多了一個鈕扣
就像這樣地要是能和某個有多的鈕扣穴的人相遇
讓一切變得有意義就好了
伴隨邂逅的次數而增加的別離
即使如此內心仍因希望而跳動
每當在走過十字路口的時候
難免也會有迷失方向的時候

總是乞望想擁有比眼前更多
為了追求那不變的愛而高歌
於是齒輪不停轉動
超過必要的負擔 讓齒輪一面發出嘎吱的聲響
伴隨希望的衍生而增加的失望
即使如此明天的內心依舊悸動
「究竟會發生什麼事呢？」
試著去想像看看吧
伴隨邂逅的次數而增加的別離
即使如此內心仍因希望而跳動
現在已經不能夠回頭了啊向
前走吧 踏上沒有你的這條路

Graduation Parade

after 11 weeks... finally... Passing Out Parade



mama and i waiting enthusiastically for the parade to start.
we woke up very early this day; at 6am!! so as to catch the first ferry to Tekong.
i was yawning all my way there...



Bravo Platoon 2~
me cant help noticing a funny guy in this platoon.
he is the 3rd guy counting from the left. first row.
his head was in this position (looking 45 degree upwards) throughout the whole ceremony.
haha! what's so nice to look up there?? =p



standing very still



change formation


changing to sergeant chevron~
family members are suppose to take down the corporal chevron and replace it with the sergeant chevron.
haha! me had a hard time treasure hunting for this little piece of cloth.
bro was not able to talk, and had to stand very still. the only clue i can get from him was his action of rolling his eyes, and tilting his brow.
i was fumbling panickly by opening all his pockets in the end.
呵呵！ 看起来像搜身多一点。被我弄得毫无美感可言。=p



毕业啦~



yoyo~ buddies

i was standing beside my bro when a Lieutenant Colonel (2 crab on shoulder, i only found out abt the ranking sympol after bro told me on the way home) come talk to me.
he seems very interested abt our background when he know we are from taiwan. And he talk non-stop abt his taiwan experience. Haha! i donno what was he talking, and i was lost with all the army terms he used, but i still politely pretend to talk to him a bit，敷衍敷衍他一下。。
But my bro was very happy (donno why was he happy at that time, but now i know). i took a pic of them both.
well, at least that was not too bad, as soon later, a General come join him, and he too; Talks a lot. But they are very nice pple. 没什么架子。 =p

in the end, we all took a pic together.


Bro with General






bro was very paisei when taking pic with me there.
and very impatient too; always hurrying me.
haiz..
but he was very keen in taking pics with all his buddies.
and i become his personal camera man, following him around



Blackie is the most famous dog at Tekong.
it is a stray dog, and it roams the island freely. But it always will attend the flag rising and lowering ceremony without fail everyday. it will sit in front of the pole and watch the Singapore flag. that is its usual spot. It even howl with the music during the ceremony everytime.
a dog who likes to sing. cool huh~

however, bro told me that it was locked up in the tennis court early this day. to ensure the smooth running of the graduation parade. Now it was then released.



waiting for the federal bus



going home~ ^_^
i like this pic, they didnt know i was taking pic of them secretly at the back.



after a sumptuous italian lunch

Gedicht VI

Here is another great work by Chris~ =)


Hamburg, den 03.08.2005
23:51 Uhr

Gegenseitige, ungleichzeitige Liebe

Dort lag sie gestern.
Hier liegt sie heute.

„Du liebst mich!
Kleine, bitte guck’ nicht so.
Es tut mir Leid…
was sag’ ich nur…
…
Ich
…
liebe
Dich
nicht!“

„Warte, ich liebe Dich jetzt!
Aber… wo gehst Du hin?
Bleib doch!!
…bleib doch…bitte…
…fort…
…liebe mich doch!!“

Was ist Morgen?

Ich tu die Haende falten,
spuer’ sie nicht mehr, die Kalten,
und stosse aus meinem Munde,
dem Nachthimmel zur Kunde,
tausend Sternschnuppen weit hinaus.

Moegest Du eine von ihnen sehen,
die Dich zu suchen,
die Nacht durchwehen.

Wuerd’ der Morgen nur die Zeiten einen,
so hoert’ ich auf zu weinen.

dont hesitate to marry a rich, dumb guy~

haha~ 姐妹们！注意啦~ dont hesitate to marry a rich, dumb guy~ ^_^

~~~~~

決定智商的八對基因全部都是位於 X染色體上面，
然後男生是 X Y，X 是來自母親，Y 是來自父親。

所以男生的智商全部都是來自母親的遺傳 。

然後女生是 XX，所以女生的智商是父親跟母親各有一半影響。然後說，因為女生的智商是父親母親都有影響，所以會有中和的效應。

所以女生智商的分布會呈現自然分布 (normaldistribution )，就是倒鐘狀，中間最多，兩邊較少。

然後男生因為是完全只受一方影響，所以男生智商分布會呈現在偏向在兩個極端。


也就是說，男生天才比較多，但是同時，蠢材之中也是男生特別多。

~~~~~~~~~~

這個故事告訴我們什麼？
1、「你要判斷一個男生聰不聰明，看他媽媽就知道了。」
2、 然後我們用機率來算：生男孩的機率 = 1 /2，生女孩的機率 = 1 / 2。

生男孩的時候，母親對於男孩智商的影響力 = 1。
生女孩的時候，母親對於女孩智商的影響力 = 1 / 2。

所以說母親跟父親對於下一代智商的影響力 ( 期望值 )的比例是:1*1/2 + 1/2*1/2 ： 0*1/2+ 1/2*1/2 =0.75：0.25 = 3： 1 = 母：父


所以說， 如果你：
1、是男生，如果你覺得你很笨的話。你千萬要娶一個聰明的女生來！這樣你小孩翻盤的機率還有七成五，人生還是充滿了希望。

2、是女生，如果你覺得你很笨的話，糟糕了～因為，你翻人家盤的機率有七成五 .....

3 、當你看到一個男生很聰明的時候，則，他父親很聰明的機率是 0 %( 應該說，就算他父親很聰明，也對他是沒有影響的 )，可是他母親很聰明的機率是100%。


所以說，如果你在考慮要嫁給一個很聰明的男生時，你就要小心他媽媽，可能會是一個很會算計的婆婆。反之，當你看到一個男生很笨的時候，沒錯，他通常會很有錢，這是上帝的安排，上帝為了不讓人類滅亡，所以他會讓很笨的人很有錢，這樣他才能娶到聰明的女生。

總之，當你看到有錢但很笨的男生的時候，不要猶豫，嫁給他！！！

Those days

早上去了邮局一趟，去领一个错过了的包裹。

是他寄来的，打开包裹时，感到一丝温暖
他还是关心着我的。

依旧如印象中的体贴到令人心疼；知道我打算报名JLPT后，隔天马上就帮我买了两本日语模拟考题，和一本杂志。知道我不见他，他还是邮寄来了，叮咛着我考试该注意的事项。他多少是宠着我的。常常顺着我莫名的怪脾气，和我的任性。只是，他最爱的是他自己吧，自私的欺骗也成了理所当然。但个性使然，我无法接受有了瑕疵的爱情，一丝丝的不完美，就像结了疤的伤，永远存在。我刚烈固执的性格，他早应该知道了。

突然想起曾经和他上街的光景。那天我穿了新鞋，把脚后跟的皮磨破了，他二话不说，买了ok梆，蹲下来要帮我把鞋子脱下包伤口。也许我仍旧裹足于传统思想中吧，这感觉是震撼的，受宠若惊之余，我羞涩地躲着他的手。自长大懂事后，就没有人如此对我过了……

至少想起这个男人时，不是所有的回忆都是不堪回首的。开心、欢笑的日子，我们也曾有过。


又想到前几天他说的那句话
“我想我再也找不到会喜欢上我的人了……”

我理应为他如报应似的遭遇感到快乐才是，但却没有。
他那股理直气壮的高傲与自负，在他的语气里，已消失得无影无踪。
取而代之，涌上我心头的是一股茫然感，为什么要尝到被玩弄践踏的滋味后，他才会如此怀念曾被他视为食之无味，弃之可惜的过去？
他太高估自己了，如此有魅力及手腕的交际花，岂是他能捉得到的？
而他，是因为输得太惨，而珍惜起往昔。
霎那间，我嫉妒起那位女子，如果可以，如果我能如她一般潇洒地抛开一切道德的包袱，我愿意以和他的所有所有的回忆，来换取玩弄他感情的一天。。

但我知道，我是做不到的。道德观太重了……
永远只会虚张声势，靠着幻想来安慰自己


忽然感到有点可悲，为自己，为他

Mama's back

Mom returned from taiwan today. Me feel so happy~~ Guess I had enough of the days being so free, and eating out always. I miss the feeling of someone opening the door for me at home when I press the door bell. I miss the days when I can always ask mom about what we having for dinner, instead of bro asking me. I have to go back to my normal life though; no more slacking, no more sleeping late, and have to obey the curfew.


Mom bought a skirt for me. Simply love it~
it is a beautiful pink handmade skirt, and the tailoring is very unique; seamless, made from one whole piece of cloth, hence, no joining at the sides.
But when I heard the price, almost fainted….
It costs NT39900, which is almost $2000 Singapore dollars!!
She also bought another same black one for herself.
Well, guess mama must be in a very good mood that day when she went for shopping. My heart will ache for days, erm, no no, think will ache for months if I spend this amount on a skirt. ^_^!!


Me try on the skirt, it is a bit big for me. It hangs loosely on my hip, under my belly button.
Haha! Become low cut skirt le~
However, I dont wanna send it for alteration, otherwise it will have seams after it is trimmed to my size. And mine was the last piece when mama bought it, therefore, not able to go back to change the size.
Haiz.. nvm then, I can still wear it when I become fat (hope not) in future. =p

The Istana building

That is the place we heading to~


The Istana building was built by the british colonial government to house its governors. Completed in 1869, it was then known as government house.



after touring the ground floor.


we are not allowed to take any photos inside the istana building.
in the building, the first best thing is the cooling aircon~~ ^_^
the chandelier lightings made the place look very grand, and majestic. it is just like a palace~
but the building is a bit small though, as compared to other bigger countries' government house. it was renovated extensively in 1998 to add more space and modern day conveniences.

we are allowed to tour the gound floor only.
There is a reception hall on the left. it is here that foreign and local politicians are introduced to visit president. as its name implies, tea receptions are held here as well.
On the right there is State Room or Victoria Room.
Behind the staircase, there is the entrence to the Banquet Hall. In there, it displayed the gifts sent by other countries from many parts of the world.

We finished seeing these 3 places very soon, and was rather reluctant to step outside, into the hot sun again.



Smilez~~~

First sight of president

so many policemen~~




i was talking to my bro, when he suddenly paused our conversation
i turned around, and saw the President of Singapore passing by

bro quickly took a pic of him ^_^

we are lucky, cos the pple visiting istana are not always able to see president.
this is our first visit, and we managed to see him~









the crowd around him~ @_@
so many pple

Resting, enjoying the breeze

sprawling parkland of Istana

Went to istana early in the morning.

After living in Singapore for so many years, it is unbelivable that i have never been there before.

it is the official residence of the president of singapore, located on a hill over 100 acres at orchard area.

a very nice place, i like the scenery there.
it is lush with tall magnificent trees, and even has a 9 hole golf course~
there were lots of people there, picnicing on the grass patch, and many pple were drawing too

啊，写意的一天

we didnt manage to finish touring the whole area. as the people are getting more and more towards the afternoon. 人太多就觉得杂乱, therefore, we left earlier than our scheduled time. we even get to see the president! and managed to catch a few photos of him~ hoho!







itchy itchy scratch scratch ^_^


I like this pic hoho!



cute boy~
so engrossed in his drawing
but i think he gonna need a thicker pair of glasses soon =p





so many pple drawing and picnicing here
nice view, beautiful weather~
i suddenly regret of not bringing along a sketchbook
but nvm, i brought along somethng better~ my camera~ hoho!
it definitely will be better than my drawing

A series of Unfortunate Events

today is simply a continuation of yesterday's horror

when i woke up in the morning, i got a big shock when i look into the mirror!

my left eye was swollen!!! i can hardly open half of my left eye

hence, my eyes were one big one small..... very obvious

bro said pple can even see the diff of the size of my eye even if i wear glasses..

and he is such a heartless creature!! he laugh at my misery and call me 大小眼

i tried applying ice on my eyelid, but no use... sigh...

so basically, i stay at home for the whole day, feel so depressed, dont want to go out at all


it was only towards evening time, my swollen eyes become better.
feel so happy! i was so worried that my eyes will look like that forever!

Chagall

仰望星空， 让我想起 Chagall
恋爱的人，总是浮在城市半空中
视若无睹的 忘情忘我紧紧眷恋着
连公鸡都在温柔歌颂

我看爱情，爱情看我；两头
我唱了歌
歌给我美好期待中， 你在哪里呢？
我们将在那个城市相逢？
小猫想做见证趴在窗口
流星划过我们就恋爱了~

你还没来，我一个人就跳跳舞解闷
你还没来，我一个人看着Chagall画册
虚构着可能属于我的美丽爱情
怎么忽然流泪了？
后来又笑开了~





being singing this song the whole evening
the rhythm spinning in my head even now!
like this song a lot~ Chagall

a Horrible day in School

不可思议！！！

真无法相信！那种只会在漫画里出现的情节居然在我身上上演了

今天真的倒霉透了。。。唉。。。。

带领一年级的学生到电脑室，从教室出发，明明排好队的，走不到一半，就听见学生紧张地叫我。
一回头，就是一幅恐怖的景象：原本浩浩荡荡的队伍，只剩下不到1/3 只小猫！！

老天啊！！
两个两个排的队伍，就这么简单
居然。。。居然。。。居然这样子也可以跟丢！！！！ faint!!!
神啊！！救救我吧！！！~
where is the rest of the class???

没办法，只好从剩下的小猫中派一个代表，去把那些糊涂蛋找回来。
但是。。。。可恨啊！！
我叫她赶快去找，但忘了提醒她不要大声喊叫。。。
她一下子就跑出我的控制范围，兴奋地执行她的任务去了
边跑边喊：“Jammy! 1 peace! where are you? you go wrong way le! chen lao shi waiting for all of you. we are going to another block, not this one!!!~~~....." *_*!!

真是太好了，我选了一个扩音器
还是活动的呢。。。
这下子block A 的老师们都知道了。
校长室，hod room 都在block A。这下我可出名了~
哭啊~~

经过一番折腾，扩音器终于找到那群小猫，把她们带来了。
但这群瓜，吵吵闹闹，又笑又跑又尖叫。
她们真的考验着我的每一根神经。。
闭上眼，深呼吸，
吸气、吐气、吸气、吐气
睁开眼时，她们的头都还是长着两只角

忍～～～～

我要忍～～～～～

要命的是祸不单行，校长正好经过，她又皱起了眉头。
为什么总是会被她抓到我最尴尬的时候呢？



不行了，山洪快挡不住了。。
咬着牙，继续带她们去Ｂ座的电脑室。


一进电脑室，就开始追究责任开骂了

骂到口沫横飞，她们还是一愣一愣的

唉！气死我了


最后查出来，原来是 Jammy 找　Sara 讲话。
这两个没药救的，没跟紧前面的同学，走丢了，还自作聪明地把剩下来的队伍也拐去Ａ座。
不过也实在真的是％—＊＃
她们俩没看路就算了，她们后面的同学呢？难道没看到前面的队伍吗？？

晕倒～～

这场闹剧，在Ａ座上演了半小时。
原本１小时的电脑课，只上了５分钟：

半小时找人，２５分钟骂人，５分钟开机和关机。